Today is the day

What if you were just there?
What if you were always the one?
What if there was hope~
But we lost it?
You killed me~
And made me the worst kind of all~
I'm never afraid of anyone~
But now I'm afraid of myself~
What are you?
How can you make me be afraid of myself~
When I'm not even afraid of anyone~
I never knew it was you ~
But you were there all along~
Just try to killed me~
Just one look from you~
I just felt that it was you ~
But you never showed a thing ~
Until that day, they told me~

nothing is wrong!!

nothing is wrong with me!!
and stop commenting that you are straight or bi~~
it's non of you f*cking business!!!!
i choose what i want~
and i like it!!!
i know i'm not famous or whatever~~
but if you are a friend you would support....
it is not like it's you who changed me~~~
it's just me who changed me~~~~~
alright!
i'm still me~~
hey and don't get me wrong~
it is not me who is gay or bi~~
just feel sad for my friend~~
we all know that long time ago~~
well i just knew few weeks ago~~
and hey! i accepted it~
she's our friend, my friend, and yours too~
get over it~ it's not your life....
and i'm not wrong for standing on her side~~
so buzz of she is better than you~~~
she's gay or bi i don't know the difference....
but atleast she has a girl friend~~~
unlike you~~FOREVER ALONE!!!!!!!

HATE TO SAY I MISS YOU

I REALLY DON'T ENJOY SAYING THIS...
BUT I KNOW THAT IT IS COMING FROM MY HEART.....
I..I... MISS YOU....
I REALLY WANTED YOU TO COME BACK....
BUT, I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN....
I CAN'T MAKE UP MY MIND....

ANYWAY~
IT HAS BEEN A SOME REAL TOUGH DAY....
FEW DAYS AGO I GOT LOCKED IN THE BATHROOM....
NOT BECAUSE MY PARENTS LOCKED ME OR WHATEVER...
I NEVER THOUGHT THIS WAS POSSIBLE....
ELLEN WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW PORTIA GOT STUCK IN THE TOILET....
BECAUSE SHE APPLIED TOO MUCH LOTION....
AND I THINK THAT IS JUST SO STUPID...
UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO...
 I BOUGHT A NEW LOTION FROM MARK AND SPENCER....
IT WAS QUITE A GOOD SMELL...
SO I APPLIED A LIL BIT MORE... JUST A LIL BIT MORE.....
AND THEN I GOT STUCK.... TOO BAD I DON'T HAVE A DOOR THAT SLIDES...
BUT I HAVE A TOWEL...
I WIPED MY HAND CLEAN AND TOOK THE LOTION OUT....
THEN I APPLIED IT AGAIN ON THE BED... OUTSIDE THE TOILET.....
WELL NOW I KNOW IT IS POSSIBLE...
EVERY THING IS POSSIBLE UNTIL YOU TRY IT.....

THAT WAS THE STARTING....
THEN, TODAY....
SOME NEW TEACHER CAME IN....
FIRST SHE WENT TO THE WRONG CLASS...
SHE WENT IN TO THE ARTS ROOM...
I HOPE SHE DIDN'T START TEACHING IN THAT ROOM...
CAUSE THAT ROOM IS EMPTY... JUST TABLES AND BOTTLES OF PAINT....
SHE REALISES THAT... AND SHE CAME TO OUR CLASS...
STARTS TEACHING AND STARTS ORDERING US AROUND....
YOU KNOW SHE IS SO BLUR......
JUST TO MESS WITH HER...
FEW OF US CHANGE NAMES BETWEEN US...
JUST TO CONFUSE HER WHILE TAKING ATTENDANCE....
AND WE GOT SO OVER THAT I USED A BOYS NAME...
AND THAT BOY USED MY NAME....
I THINK SHE IS JUST PLAYING ALONG....
HOW CAN SHE NOT REALISE???
MAYBE I HAVE A BOY CUT HAIR......
THE LAST TEACHER CAME IN AND ASKS US TO WRITE AN ESSAY....
THE LAST TEACHER SAYS THAT SHE'S GONNA MARK IT...
AND GIVE IT BACK TO US.... THAT IS JUST TO TEST OUR LEVEL....
THE NEXT DAY...
WE HEARD SOMEWHERE THAT SHE RESIGN, NEVER COMING BACK AGAIN....
I DON'T KNOW IT WAS OUR LEVEL THAT SCARED HER....
WAS IT TOO HIGH FOR HER... WAY ABOVE HER...OR WAY BELOW???
WELL......
I HOPE THAT THIS NEW TEACHER STAYS LONGER.....
OR MAYBE WE WON'T SEE HER AGAIN TOMORROW....?
WHO KNOWS?? MAYBE IT IS OUR DESTINY..... TO NOT HAVE ENGLISH TEACHERS......

NOBODY CAN TEACH US ENGLISH....
I STILL KEEP THINKING....
WILL SHE GIVE US OUR ESSAY BACK??
OR SHE WILL KEEP IT AS REMEMBRANCE OR SOUVENIR FROM OUR SCHOOL??

WELL THIS IS AN ESSAY THAT WILL NEVER COME BACK.............