what comes next?

I always believe in what i think is right.. no matter how many people tells me that i'm wrong or that's not the best way...

I'll listen but i wont accept, i'll do what I believe it's correct.

one thing that i'm sure of is leaving my old school. 

i'm really happy in my new school. but of course there's the pressure for better grades since my parents found out that i'm in a relationship (Asian problems). Parents are really uptight about their kids dating.. 

Today is our second anniversary...we've been together for only 2 months but to me it feels like a long time.... this has been the longest to me.. and i'm surprised that i can hold it for this long....

i am not the patient type... but i just feel like this is still ok for me.... i can still handle it....but the thing is that I have to take care of my grades to make sure it's all distinction........ or else, my parents are going to help me change another school.....

my parents said that they will not stop me and they won't encourage me dating.......... 

i would like to say that i'm going to prove to them that i can date and at the same time keep my grades high....

but i know that is like a hard to achieve target....

so i won't say that out loud......

 

Not so cool after all

This  2 months has been one of the few highlights in my life.
Many people have ask me the same question which I don't have the answer in words.
I really don't know how you did it, but every time I see you, my frown turns upside down..
Even when I don't feel like smiling, my face just can't help it when I see you .
But come to think a bout it... You said you like me cause I treat you differently then others. I don't know if that's a Reason for you to like me.....
Well I parents are always saying that we should let them know what's happening in our lives, like keep them updated....
But turns out... They are not so cool about the idea of their daughter dating....
I don't know if this is called selfishness or just parents protecting their kids. 
But they say, is it worth it that they spent so much on me just to let some me be someone's wife.
Sooner or later I'm gonna be someone's wife, does that mean they don't want me to marry? 
What does that mean?
My parents ask me, why do I need a boyfriend during this time....
I was like...... It's college....... Well, at first I don't have any plans to get involve in a relationship.......but,shit happens...... And I don't know what's up.....I planned that if I was having a crush then just let it be a crush.... But he proposed! 
Who would be stupid enough to let that chance go???!!
How many times would you get to accept your crush's proposal??
But I tried to reason out with my parents...
I mean you guys were so cool with the last one... Any you guys were always talking about why did I not accept that guy...
You said he looks like an honest and mature guy......
An d said that this guy has too many sisters and those unclear relationship......
That previous guy was the right guy.. But at the wrong time........
I've had a lot of crushes..... And to know that feeling is very different from this one.....
I didn't even realize how I was acting until he told me that every time I saw him,I'm like smiling....
I don't know what happen....I admit it... He isn't the best looking..... But somehow, I fell for it.........
I'm really confused, my parents wanted to know, and I told them... And now they are acting all gross and disgusted at the idea of me having a boyfriend ..... I think they should calm down ... Cause if there is a next time.. They might have to meet my girlfriend's parents.......
My parents are in someways old fashion.... But they'll be like oh no! I'm modern... 
They look like or they thought they could accept something, but turns out they are not so keen on the idea of accepting new things......or their acceptance level is not what I expected........