I Hope

Back to few hours ago,

i was arranging some visiting with one of my close friend.

all was ready and i called our teacher to inform her about we were going to her house.

but later the plan didn't work out,

cause our teacher is busy that time,

but my teacher told us that 2 something would be a perfect timing for us to visit her.

i then called up my friends and told them the news.

so we plan of something else.

basically it was me who did most of the planing.

but i don't mind.

they wanted to go jusco.

but i thought that it would be so dull to be going the same place over and over again.

so i said, or else we go to sunway pyramid.

because we will not be visiting our teacher.

i asked and asked.

but the friend that i was discussing with kept on bringing up:"

what about her?" than after i answered that she would ask again:"what about so and so?" again i answered it.

it happen a few times already, and it was starting to get my nerve.

so i finally asked:" do you really want to go or not?"

we were chatting trough MSN so i couldn't really express my anger.

i don't know she felt that whether i was angry or not.

but i think she knew..

cause i started using capital letters to reply.

but then she was quite patient.

i have a bad temper.

i knew that.

i get pissed off easily.

i have been trying hard to control.

she was so cool..

then finally she said:"then why not u don't go?"

i was blazing that time, so i said:" U all doesn't want me to follow right?!"

i was boiling!

after a few chat, 

i finally went 'away' mode.

i figured that i better go away before i get too stress out.

i was on medication..

i didn't really tell anyone.

i was on medication all the time.

cause i'm on medication,so i don't wanna stress myself.

Shit i'm getting giddy again..

i think that i'll write later.

after i take medication again...

All The Same!!

Today i manage to keep my mouth shut.

well atleast most of the time........

i kept my mouth shut just to not let my mouth hurt people..

coz XXX told me that i'm just to straight..

and she told me that mayb i could use another way to tell something negative...

so that's why I didn't speak much........

there's nothing wrong with it...

but i just feel weird that,

i don't even know that i could keep my mouth shut...

because i always thought that i was just exercising my mouth...

that's a nice way to say.

but if u put it the other way...

maybe it would be talkative....

but in this case,

i just try to watch my mouth...

what ever it is,

i don't care..

if, u want to say sumthing but u still have to turn around another angle,

then that defeats the purpose of talking...

if i keep my mouth shut long enough..

i will be deaf or unspeakable..

then maybe i'll shout at people:" Oh! Shut Up!!"

it's enough! it's only 8 o'clock and i'm tired....

i think that i'll just keep my mouth shut for the whole week....

That's what friends are for

To start of.....

Since i don't know where to start,

i'll just start from last year.......

Well why did i put this title for today's post,

is because I feel that i need to thank my friends from the bottom of my heart.....

i sincerely thank my FRIENDS....

Well,i'm not just saying...

they really have helped me alot....

they help me not only in my homework....

but still got other things that they've had helped me.

Those are the things that i can't possibly have done it without them...

and maybe they know what i;m talking bout....

ex: peace, 废才 and so on.....

lot's of people....

they gave me and update news..

the newest update bout my crush....

and of course this are the funny things.....

they are good friends...

and i hope that we will still be friends till the last day of our life...

i don't wish that,

maybe next year or few years later we're not in the same class then when we meet in the canteen or somewhere we act like we don;t know each other....

i hope that will not happen.

and i don't hope that we will say something bad bout each other.

WELL FRENS FOREVER.......

DRAMA

Gimme a D

Gimme a R

Gimme an A

Gimme a M

Gimme an A

Always give me what want!!!

Go dra~ma !!

Today is the first day of our ko-k.

Milo did came back after all,

and brought us a new teacher.

The name's Eagle.

how cool having this kind of name...

i don't know what made me said COOL.

but i'm sure my brain's going wrong.

not working as it suppose to.

Well,

the point is not there.

it's here.

The point is-

Cxxx has been my fren since xxx

i know she has lots of things to remember,

but i think she's kinda getting all tense up.

she's too serious.

i mean not that i don't like it.

but honestly i don't like it when she gets all suddenly serious.

example:

few days ago,

i was talking to one of my buddy,

when all of a sudden she turn around and told us:" are you all done with talkin?"

we were like 'did we did something wrong?'

'what's wrong with her?'

'has something gone wrong with her?'

like what is her problem?

we weren't bugging her like we were suppose to.

we weren't even talking bout her problem.

we were just talking bout facebook and other games.

Sometimes it's just that she is all too....

I don't know.

trust me...

if she saw this she would've say:"

the problem is not me, it's you all. you all always this...always that....." blah blah blah..she could go on talking....

well anyway I did enjoy till today....

but i hope that tomorrow will be a better day...

and world will be a much better place to live...

or i'd have to move to mars and stay with martians...

hahahahaha.......

i love today's drama class.

it's relaxing and not too much pressure...

i just wish that i could still change the society....

I 

LUV 

DRAMA

Those Kind Of Teachers

Well, to start of.

Today i kinda got scolded..

it's kinda sad....

but look on the bright side...

today is the first day i got scold.

and it took more days then i imagined...

i thought that the second after the school started,

i would be scolded by some of the damn teacher...

It's so long since i got scolded...

Not much teacher paid that much attention to me,

but this teacher,

is kinda different from the others.....

She's not kind but,

i could say  she's not really teaching...

all she ever did was just giving us answers on the whiteboard then ask us to copy in to our workbook..

When i was in primary school,

I did wished for this kind of teacher....

But now i kinda regret!

Because if the teacher keep giving us answer,

what will we learn???

not that i don't appreciate the teacher.

i respect every teacher in a different way....

But it's just that i feel like i didn't learn anything.....

Then when i asked,

she did explain,

but, i still don't understand....

i actually don't quite like that teacher...

i did say i don't understand...

but actually i was just plying the fool.

Then after that i asked again.

but this time i was not joking...

i was serious that i don't understand..

that teacher did explained too.

but after she explained,

i realise where my problem is,

so i turned away and did my own business...

And i asked my fren something....

she scolded me that instance.....

not that i was complaining...

She scolded me, saying that i don't understand and i did not listen while she explain...

Well i was quite angry with her.

because how does she know that i was not listening 

while she was explaining?

and she can't accuse me either!

because she got her back facing at me the whole time she was explaining!!

So in the end! can her back see me? does her back has eyes?

For a normal person...

i think the answer should be NO!

who's back got a pair of eyes??

And moreover, i'm not the only one that is not listening....

and, i did say that i was listening to her...

but her problem is that she heard other people talking..

and as i said i was not the only one not listen...

and when she scold it was ME!

only ME that she scold!

and she even scolded me saying 

that:" so clever don't need to study! go out lah!"

This is too much!!!

and later when i think of it...

i felt a little funny....

because if i were normal,

i should have said something back,

but all i did was keep quite...

well, if i did said sumthing.

i think i would be home earlier..

coz i would be in the principal's office...

Well that would be COOL TILL THE TOP!

THE WHOLE SCHOOL WILL KNOW!!

THEN, I'LL HIT THE MOST POPULAR PERSON!!!

The Real World

I believe that many people or my friends encounter this kind of problem.

My problem is that i have a crush on somebody,

but that's not the main problem.

The main problem is that I don't even know what is his name!

I don't know whether I am normal or not.

But I keep on changing,

and maybe that's y i keep on crushing on lots of person..

Well watever that is, the main main is still not this problem.

Is the real world.

I just don't know how to live trough it..

Well i'm ofcourse lucky to have friends like Cass, JY, YY, YYS, CY and so on.

And bear in mind those that I didn't mention doesn't mean they are not omy friends.....

It's juzt that I have to many friends....

Without them and ofcourse my family,

I will not be living in this complicated world.....

I wanna thanks my friends and family....

To my friends:

You all have been so good to me,

I hope that those who read my blog will be gratefull to their friends too.

And maybe sometimes i could be cruel a little...

but i still hope that you all can juz forget about it..

All the time you all know that i was just joking....

For everything that i say, if anything that i did,

ever hurted your glass heart please...

i don't mean it..

and even though sumtimes i could be a teensy winsy bit bossy....

hope that you all will tell me...

trust me!

it won't ruin our friendship....

i am not so ....so......

Anyway now.

To my family:

i also want tot thank you all....

especially dad.

dad heard me complaining about not having wifi or something....

but than dad went to fix the wifi....

and even though it is about RM 80 per month...

dad still fixed it eventually....

My friends.....

My family......

you all have been so extra supportive..

even though that some of my friends are sarcastic...

but i know that they don't mean it....

and my mom told me to KEEP HOLDING ON,

but my friends told me I WILL MAKE IT TROUGH.

i believe them all....

and i wanna tell my friends that THEY'RE NOT ALONE.

if they have any problem,

they can come to me for help....

I will always be free for my friends..

(those are the lyrics in a song)

2nd Home

Oh man, the school started.
and i dun have enough time to play games already...
What am I gonna do...
Alot of people say that the school is our second home..
Because we spent most of our time in the school.

It's only one week..
But i feel as if it already past a few months..
There are lots of new teacher..
Oh my god!
i don't know how am i going to study this year..
The teachers all speak so softly..
like they are scared to break their voice..
How am i going to know what are they teaching?
Can somebody tell the teachers?!

Man....what are the teachers teaching?
But my life is getting so much better...
I hope that all my friends will be as happy as me!!
If ayone has problem,
I'll be free to hear their problem....