coolest birthday

18th of March

the day when I was brought to this world~

the day my mom suffered~

everyone could have a birthday party~

but how many 16 year-old could have a birthday party.....

at a GRAVEYARD!!

how cool was that??

everyone could crash a birthday party~

but not everyone or thing could crash a party in the cemetery...

i was lucky to have this birthday party~

it was like a Halloween party to me~

cool costumes,

gothic make up...

the venue it self was eerie enough~

i don't have to spend much to decorate~

so i saved quite a lot~

 half way between my party~

there was a few kids who came by~

i thought they were lost kids~

so i invited them to my party as well~

after that~

a tall guy came~

and claimed to be their father~

he was wearing something like halloween costume~

below is something that looks like his clothes

i tried drawing it~

but i just can't draw the details...

so instead i found this pic online.... 

kinda looks the same~~

he's pale~

but sharp features~

high nose~

dark mysterious blue eyes~

he looks like a character from those horror story~

he apologize for leaving his kids astray~

and flashed a thousand watt smile~

and left~

till now i still can't forget his smile~

this mysterious guy~

girls like mysterious and dangerous guys~

i don't mind having ghostly kids~

and a ghostly handsome boyfriend~

hope to see this guy again~

I hate you

this word i've been meaning to tell many people.
but
i still can't say it~
why?
coz i think i still have some feelings left somewhere
i'm not all cold blooded.
juz going to be
i've sworn not to say anything bout it
but all i can tell is that
today is a very hateful day
firstly,
all my exams fail
then,
i have to live my rest of the year with a person
i mentally dislike.
u can call me wateva names u all like.
but as long as my brain is still working,
i'll never forgive you!!
if you are readin my blog.
i'm tellling you!!
 it is u!

later in the afternoon,
i was suppose to attend a meeting.
but i'm really sorry for leaving suddenly.
cause if not i'll not b able to get home on time.
besides all these~
i'm really lookin forward to the day we go and have
FUN!!!
really need a good rest~
i just can't believe it~
i really did put in my hardwork.
but all it did was just became worst!
i really dont understand how the logic works.
first,
people studies, get good grades.(most of them)
people who don't study, get bad grades.(some of them)
so i decided to study!
wateva~
mayb my brain is really not meant for studying..
or maybe those subjects just isn't my type...
it could even be my DNAs are not use to studying...
or else it's my...
i really can't think of any reasons,
why i got a bad grade even though i studied..
JUST REALLY DON'T GET IT...
god's really unfair...
but come to think of it...
god treats everyone unfair...
doesn't that makes god fair?

newly~

this year i tried started out fresh!!
and i did it~
some guy i saw last year~
but~
i didn't really know him started talkin 2 me~
it was weird~
well not that he broke the ice~
i started asking him like what's the date and stuff~
he was startled at first~
but he came over it~
he is quite cool~
that is why i don't mind talking to them or him~
i can see that he is some how not the same~
he usually day dreams ~
but he seems smart~
he treats me well~
cheats in exams too~
i mean he helps me to cheat~
although i still see that his ex still flirts with him~
but~
i have no right to be angry or mad at all~
cause we're not official neither a start~
i just hopes that he doesnt freaks out~
after he finds out~
most guys freak out when they found out~
and starts to avoid you~
and act like you're a weirdo~
and stuff~ i think he won't!!

this is just a real random thoughts~~ you could ignore if you don't have the time to read~

my life

looking at the title it is already boring!!!!
who in the world would wanna know your life?
but if you're reading this line~
i thank you for reading on~

anyway~
few days ago while i was having a pop quiz~
it was quite windy that day~
and the leaves were ruslting~
it made me quite nervous~
for a moment~
i felt that even the leaves are mocking me!!!
they were like soft whispering sound~
how could they?
after that~
it started raining~
big blobs of tear shaped water came down~
well~
that totally wrecked my confidence!!
cause it looks just like god crying!
is god feeling sorry for me?
yeeah~
i thought so~

after that really ghostly pop quiz~
came another math test~
the whole day of my life~
tests after tests!!

well enough of those negativity~
this saturday~
i'm going to watch a stage show~
in a real teather, i hope.
anxious!!  can't wait for it!!

it has been too long

2 more days,
and the big heart shape is everywhere
but,
you are at no where to be seen!
where the hell have you been?
just like my blog-- forgotten?
at least i came back
not like you.
you left me when i was at my happiest time.

anyway~
just to let you know,
i'm having a big Single's party.
and thank you for leaving me.

besides that...
to anyone who's reading my blog...
my birthday is coming soon...
no big..
just wanna let da whole world know!!
so i'f who's birthday is also on the 18th of MARCH~
u r welcome to leave a comment~

raining heavily outside~
hope to catch a good night sleep after a tired day!!
good nite to those early birds~
and a good morning to those night kids~

random again~

damn~
damn~
damn~
damn~
damn~
damn~
damn~
i don''t know how many 'damns' i'm gonna type~
but luckly i stopped~

so~
just now~
when I was just coming back from high tea~
the rain was coming down in buckets full, cause the clouds let loose~
cat's paws of rain dotted the windshield~
echoing sound of thunder shook the car~
the whole world infront was just a big blob of blurish spots~
i told Jenna to drive slowly~
so it took us 4 hours to get back~
i rest in her hotel before dad took me home~
by then it was not raining~
thank god~

anyway~
i went to a school for interview few days ago~
still waiting for my results~
hoping that the school will still accept me~
you know~
i was thinking that it's about time~
i'll just answer any question~

just random~
so you guys know that i went to HK~
but actually I was planning to go to Switzerland again for skiing~
but~
Switzerland is not snowing and the fake snow ust melted away~
and there's no way that anyone will be able to SKI!!!
so that's why I changed plan and went to HK~

all right~
in another post~
I'll tell you who i met!!
you'll never believed it!!

cause it's christmas!!

so~
i can feel~
that most people got some christmas spirit rammed into them~
but~
i can say i got it too~

anyway~
i got a friend she visits the grave~
almost as if it was her house~
well~
yesterday i tag along too~
we went to the grave~
we passed by all the tombs~
and into a clearing just behind the cemetry~
in the middle of the clearing was an old tree~
a tree without leaves and with roots longer than a car~
she took some sandwiches and a jug of root beer~
we sat under the tree~
the moonlight shining on us~
for some might think that it is creepy~
but i thought it was calm and peacefull~
for a moment we sat there~
until a shadow loomed over us~
to my surprise~
i did not shout and ran away~
Jenna stood up and gently let the stranger sat down~
she took a slice of sandwich and passed the jug of rootbeer to him~
that guy looked at me but he did not ask anything~
for a moment our eyes met~
i saw a sparkle in his deep, bottomless eyes~
he's eyes was dark blue, but not any kind of blue~
i recognise it!
it was a blue like the gem, lapiz lazuli~
i saw a ring on his hand~
i remember Angelius gave me a ring before he left~
it was also stoned with the same gem~
before i realise, that guy left before the sun rose~
Jenna packed up~
and we left too~
Jenna did not tell me who that guy was~
i did not ask~just keep on let me think that guy was Angelius~
i miss him~
i did not know where he went or is he still on this world.