Today is the day

What if you were just there?
What if you were always the one?
What if there was hope~
But we lost it?
You killed me~
And made me the worst kind of all~
I'm never afraid of anyone~
But now I'm afraid of myself~
What are you?
How can you make me be afraid of myself~
When I'm not even afraid of anyone~
I never knew it was you ~
But you were there all along~
Just try to killed me~
Just one look from you~
I just felt that it was you ~
But you never showed a thing ~
Until that day, they told me~

nothing is wrong!!

nothing is wrong with me!!
and stop commenting that you are straight or bi~~
it's non of you f*cking business!!!!
i choose what i want~
and i like it!!!
i know i'm not famous or whatever~~
but if you are a friend you would support....
it is not like it's you who changed me~~~
it's just me who changed me~~~~~
alright!
i'm still me~~
hey and don't get me wrong~
it is not me who is gay or bi~~
just feel sad for my friend~~
we all know that long time ago~~
well i just knew few weeks ago~~
and hey! i accepted it~
she's our friend, my friend, and yours too~
get over it~ it's not your life....
and i'm not wrong for standing on her side~~
so buzz of she is better than you~~~
she's gay or bi i don't know the difference....
but atleast she has a girl friend~~~
unlike you~~FOREVER ALONE!!!!!!!

HATE TO SAY I MISS YOU

I REALLY DON'T ENJOY SAYING THIS...
BUT I KNOW THAT IT IS COMING FROM MY HEART.....
I..I... MISS YOU....
I REALLY WANTED YOU TO COME BACK....
BUT, I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN....
I CAN'T MAKE UP MY MIND....

ANYWAY~
IT HAS BEEN A SOME REAL TOUGH DAY....
FEW DAYS AGO I GOT LOCKED IN THE BATHROOM....
NOT BECAUSE MY PARENTS LOCKED ME OR WHATEVER...
I NEVER THOUGHT THIS WAS POSSIBLE....
ELLEN WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW PORTIA GOT STUCK IN THE TOILET....
BECAUSE SHE APPLIED TOO MUCH LOTION....
AND I THINK THAT IS JUST SO STUPID...
UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO...
 I BOUGHT A NEW LOTION FROM MARK AND SPENCER....
IT WAS QUITE A GOOD SMELL...
SO I APPLIED A LIL BIT MORE... JUST A LIL BIT MORE.....
AND THEN I GOT STUCK.... TOO BAD I DON'T HAVE A DOOR THAT SLIDES...
BUT I HAVE A TOWEL...
I WIPED MY HAND CLEAN AND TOOK THE LOTION OUT....
THEN I APPLIED IT AGAIN ON THE BED... OUTSIDE THE TOILET.....
WELL NOW I KNOW IT IS POSSIBLE...
EVERY THING IS POSSIBLE UNTIL YOU TRY IT.....

THAT WAS THE STARTING....
THEN, TODAY....
SOME NEW TEACHER CAME IN....
FIRST SHE WENT TO THE WRONG CLASS...
SHE WENT IN TO THE ARTS ROOM...
I HOPE SHE DIDN'T START TEACHING IN THAT ROOM...
CAUSE THAT ROOM IS EMPTY... JUST TABLES AND BOTTLES OF PAINT....
SHE REALISES THAT... AND SHE CAME TO OUR CLASS...
STARTS TEACHING AND STARTS ORDERING US AROUND....
YOU KNOW SHE IS SO BLUR......
JUST TO MESS WITH HER...
FEW OF US CHANGE NAMES BETWEEN US...
JUST TO CONFUSE HER WHILE TAKING ATTENDANCE....
AND WE GOT SO OVER THAT I USED A BOYS NAME...
AND THAT BOY USED MY NAME....
I THINK SHE IS JUST PLAYING ALONG....
HOW CAN SHE NOT REALISE???
MAYBE I HAVE A BOY CUT HAIR......
THE LAST TEACHER CAME IN AND ASKS US TO WRITE AN ESSAY....
THE LAST TEACHER SAYS THAT SHE'S GONNA MARK IT...
AND GIVE IT BACK TO US.... THAT IS JUST TO TEST OUR LEVEL....
THE NEXT DAY...
WE HEARD SOMEWHERE THAT SHE RESIGN, NEVER COMING BACK AGAIN....
I DON'T KNOW IT WAS OUR LEVEL THAT SCARED HER....
WAS IT TOO HIGH FOR HER... WAY ABOVE HER...OR WAY BELOW???
WELL......
I HOPE THAT THIS NEW TEACHER STAYS LONGER.....
OR MAYBE WE WON'T SEE HER AGAIN TOMORROW....?
WHO KNOWS?? MAYBE IT IS OUR DESTINY..... TO NOT HAVE ENGLISH TEACHERS......

NOBODY CAN TEACH US ENGLISH....
I STILL KEEP THINKING....
WILL SHE GIVE US OUR ESSAY BACK??
OR SHE WILL KEEP IT AS REMEMBRANCE OR SOUVENIR FROM OUR SCHOOL??

WELL THIS IS AN ESSAY THAT WILL NEVER COME BACK.............

holss

great holidays~~
great time~
great place~
great sun~

it didn't go as my plan~
but that is also goood~
because it did not go according to my plan~
that is why i met someone at the beach~~
we were just learning how to sail a boat~~
the trainer was teaching another kid~
so we took the boat and went out to the sea~
the trainer agreed but said that we must have trained person~
we lied to him that one of us knew how to sail~
but then there was this guy from somewhere around the earth came~
and said that he was going sailing alone~
we quickly asked if we could join~
he agreed ofcourse~
that was the first day~
then he asked me if i wanted to go sailing tomorrow~
i lied and said no~
cause i can see that Jessica likes him~
the second day~
i went to the library~
somewhere not near the beach~
at the beach we saw some guys playing beach volley~
cool~ and there were girls in bikini~ super hot~
well guess who i bump into? that sailor guy~
his name was Drake~ Just here for the holiday~
just like me~ well i think he said that he was from England~
i asked him~ i thought you were going sailing?
he said it was no fun without me~~ *aww~ how sweet~*
he is super hot~ he has the sweetest mouth~
he thinks that i've never been to Malaysia~
well it is his brain~ i won't correct him or anything~
just incase if he is a cheater or a liar~
every time we meet someone we will ask Do you have Fb? or Twitter?
i asked him~ he said No, but for me he will take the trouble to create an account ~ how very sweet~ but i was thinking are you from the woods? someone who can afford a freaking pent house and a freaking lamborghini can't afford a Fb FREE account?????
this must be a freaking scam, or a cheater~

anyway~
hols is over gonna go back to study~~
i love you holiday~~ 
bye bye sun~
bye bye beach~
bye bye hols~~

镜子外的，也不是我~

镜子里的不是我~
那镜子外的应该是我？
还是不是我？
虽然像我，感觉是我~
可是真的不是我~~
我到底去了哪里？？
有谁可以告诉我？？
我很想知道~
可惜不是我~
站在你旁边的~
在我眼里，永远比我丑~
除非我是那个站在你旁边的人~
拜托你~回来好吗？
你是近视度越来越深，还是围着你的女生越来越丑？
或是你的taste越来越烂？是不是有人逼你跟她在一起，不然就杀你家人？
如果都不是~ 请你回来~

好吗？？
自己走这个桥~真的好像一个无尽头的桥~永远到不到另外一边~

hey ELLEN!

i think that i'm going crazy~~~
after exam keep watching tv and movie~~
just love the show Ghetto Justice 2~
and ofcourse ELlen show!!
does anybody know which show was Ellen in when she played the roll Ellen Morgan~??
would love to watch the show~~

anyway~~
holiday is comming~~~
i think i'm kinda happy today~~
just saying~
good things never come alone~~~
i'm sure of that~
they come with bad things~~
i got the 1st pace in speech competition today~~~
it's no big~~ just joking~~
to me it's a big thing~~
i never thought that i would be the winner~~
just thought that the other competitors were really great too~~

well that's the good thing~
and the bad thing,
not to mention my mark~
that is not the bad thing, it is the worse thing!!
the bad thing is~
i have nothing to do on FRIDAY!!!
it feels like forever alone~~!!
how sad~~

just hope that i could find something to do~~

one last warning~
NEVER EVER MESS WITH MY PHONE!!

to be a smartass, 1st you have to be smart~
or else you would just be an ass~~


SOMETHING TO CHEER YOU UP!!!!!
GOOD DAY!!! =]

OWH!!

shit!
it hurts a lot!
god!!!!
i'm suppose to go for ice skating,
but my freaking friends left me!
they said that Amber's grandmother passed away~
so... fine!
here i am now~
i'm also suppose to study~
but i'm still here writing~
(i'm suppose to do lot's of things)


alright~
i think that my rib cage is scratched or damaged~
i have difficulty in writing and standing and now typing~
this post may hv a lot of typo and shortcuts~
coz i'm too lazy to move my hand~
okay~ here's the truth~
last night i went skateboarding with Nick and The Collins~
Nick was my neighbor but  he moved away last year~
The Collins brother studies at Nick's school~
Nick is just our driver~he skates for fun~
but The Collins are professional skateboarder~
and they were trying to teach me how to do a darkside grind~
i've been learning this from last year~
but somehow i just can't get it right!
few months ago i hurt my arm~
it was just a few scratches,
and now i don't if it's broken or not~
cause i searched the web~
and it said that i have atleast broke 3 of my rib bones~
maybe i should hv just gone to the doctor~

instead of searching the web~


well~
i'm going to buy another skateboard this sunday~
hope this kind!!!


Fine~
better go study~~