just some cheesy feelings....

Well Monday was my last day in school.
I should have brought a camera.
I went to finish my documents in private..
and only some of the closest friend know what was happening.
I was kinda sad that when they were so calm....
but well I guess that's a good thing to...
I don't expect them to be crying and stuff...
I don't need them to dwell over it...
I guess I should've notice that my time was up..
when I got a new seat, beside a guy who tries to be friendly...
I'm really sorry to that guy, nothing personal..
It's just that I don't usually talk to people like you about my personal things...
You might find it hard to believe..but...
It was quite difficult for me,
since my everyday life basically surrounds my four friends..
we were like a sitcom..well, atleast that's what I thought.
so, when I got a new seat it was kinda weird...
it seems like I'm out of my world..
I'm out of Earth and living in Mars..
I try very hard to get back to Earth but...
you know earth has an Ozone layer which is kinda hard to get through..

I always say that school was boring...
but thanks to my four friends and the one who's always cooks cheesy egg.
I always manage to get through my day...
Although sometimes I let my temper get the better of me,
you guys still put up with my quirky ways and bad temper...
I know that you guys won't understand maybe half of the words here...
but I'll try to write the next in Mandarin...
It won't be as touching as this post.
but I'll do my best to try to express my feelings that I usually don't say out loud.
I've always believed that quality is more important than quantity...
and that's why I trust that I just need these few friends that can be trusted..
rather than a bunch of fair weathered friends....

I don't know bout you guys..
but I've always trusted you all...
I've never doubted you guys..
well sometimes. but not always only the right time....
anyway...
this Sunday, I'll be going on my last class trip...
and I pray that everything will go smoothly..
I meant not the road which can cause accidents..
well....
my next post will be after my class trip...
and those will be dedicated* to my few close friends...

*meaning, specially for.

misunderstood

there comes a time when everything goes very very wrong.
and nothing you do seem to fix them...
whatever you say just doesn't make things right.
people you know will just turn their back towards you.
it's like the dark clouds are following you forever ..
and you are stuck in the world of bad luck..
all the choices you make doesn't seem right at all..
well if you are going through those things...
you should just hang tight, hold on to a hand rail...
cause it's just a roller coaster going up hill....
when you look back you'll see that it's the fun part of your life...

i know i make bad choices and bad decision.
but i don't regret things..like not right after i do it...
takes awhile to let it sink in then i'll say i won't regret it....
but you know...
since no one from the future came back to stop me...
so how bad could it be....

well everyone has a dream...
i dreamed of being a movie star and a singer...
but well i don't think it's coming true....
because i'm afraid to leave my comfort zone...
i'm just waiting for someone to realize that i could be an actress....
but well....guess i'm gonna forget bout it....
after all they say follow your dreams....
but dreams only appear when you fall asleep....

i hope that the choices i make will not destroy mankind..
or even put the earth in danger....
or else i'll be the villain...
anyway,
to those who are reading...
good luck in your life...
don't regret anything....
unless you married the wrong person...
then you should regret about it...
and then get a divorce... as soon as possible....

not so into it

well,
looks like everyone is starting to abandon facebook....
and the new checking your facebook everyday is now NOT checking your facebook everyday...
i don't know watsup with everybody...
but i feel like everyone's busy....
busy with their life...
while i'm happily on my holiday....
free and easy.....
with people i love and place i like.....
now everyday i'm just playing by the seaside....
i've used about 2 bottles of sunscreen..
i hope i don't get sun burned like last time....
well....
again....
everyone's like not touching the internet or just trying to get away from me....
but just so you know....
i'll soon disappear from beside you....
i won't be there everyday to provide you with sarcasm and hate...
so....
yeah..
i hope that when i'm gone you will remember me....
i want you all to be happy, but at the same time remember me....
i don't want y'all to be sad but just remember me.....
i hope people remember me as the ever loving, kind and sophisticated girl...
that i'm not....
but whatever it is.. just remember me... use your own way...
cause you'll never know when you will need my help,
or when will i need your help....

hearts, kisses, chocolate, flowers, valentines and stuffs but not teachers

not long to valentine.
well some will be happy and excited..
and at the same time there will also be some people not so excited...

well myself,
i won't get my hopes too high....
the higher your hopes...
the more disappointed you'll be....

anyways,
i think maybe it's because of valentines day,
some off our teacher have been quite perky and high strung.
some little teensy weensy bit will just set their timer off..
they are like those time bombs that will explode at anytime...
a lot of teachers are like in a very bad mood....
maybe they are like mad at their husband....
or..
just mad that the students are receiving presents and not them...
they could also be mad that they have no one to celebrate valentines day...
so, warning to students!
be extra careful during these few days..
before and after valentines sad and upset teachers will appear.

to those with partners,
happy valentines.
and to those who haven't found their significant other,
i will also wish you happy valentines and kisses..
so that you could run off and show off to your friends that they are not the only one who gets sweet messages from their boyfriends....

anyways,

happy valentines.

Demons and Satan

Everyone has an angel and a demon inside....
I just realize that my angel is between a demon and a satan...
But my faith is still unshaken...
I know I may not go to heaven
And I won't be easily beaten 
For I have reawaken 
From my previous engagement.

I went to the silent graveyard...
Sat by a tombstone
And waited for the twilight zone
I was all alone
Staring at my phone
I might be waiting to hear my ring tone
But I knew what I had was all gone.

The chilly wind cut my face like a sharp knife....
You could hear the leaves rustling...
It was a quiet night,
No howling wolves or owls giving you those beady looks.
I just need a place to get away.
To let my mind rest in peace and quiet...
I felt comfortable in this cemetery.
It's like my own get away spa resort.

The moon is like my night light,
Just slightly above me,
Giving out a glow,
Not to bright,
But bright enough for me to explore my thoughts.
The tombstone I'm leaning on feels cool
And the grass is a bit moist.
Just the right position..
I'm comfy and cosy.
Time to see the result of the fight between Demons, Satan and Angel.

Problems we have

For starters,

This year is getting kinda old and stale.....

Things are not going as smoothly as everybody thought...

It's gonna be Hitler Nazi once again....

No place to stand and give an opinion....

Not even the slightest spot of idea....

What's this all about?

I'm in the Yearbook Committee...

And I'm suppose to be part of the design and layout group....

But,

It looks like they r taking over everything,

And I can only do what they tell me....

I'm part of the group and I should be involve with the discussion....

I should be able to decide and vote on the things which r best for the year book....

But right  now....

I don't feel like part of the group....

Like u r just asking me to do this n that...

I hv not done any fucking designing or any layout.....

I haven't even gave and opinion...

You'd say that I could've given my thoughts...

But let me ask you, 

Did you even gave me chance to say my idea?

I joined this group 

be coz I enjoy doing this kind of stuff...

But with a leader like you,

I don't think I could work with you.....

And with your group leader weaker than my strand of hair....

I think the group would soon fall apart....

Like a deck of badly stacked cards.....
I don't mean anything bad...
But we need a way to save this communist thinking.....
Stop this Nazi camp...
I am glad to give my opinion...
Even if you decide not to use it.....
But if u keep hogging all d stuff for ur own,
U r gonna break ur hands eventually.

Nothing is a problem...
Until the leader becomes the problem....
Then, it is a huge problem.

new year new me.. bullshit!

so, here it is.

new comers to show biz.

i started first day with a pop quiz.

which i finish it with ease...

today is 2014.

i'm becoming a teen.

because i'm eighteen.

i bought a bag of jelly bean

and gave it to an old friend named Eugene.

he gave me some caffeine,

and said that he got it out of a vending machine..

we finished it in the canteen.

the first day was ok.

when my boyfriend got me a cheese souffle...

but he told me he was going away

i asked: "USA?"

but he said: "Paraguay."

and added without delay.

he said don't be afraid

for he will be my fiance

he swept me of my feet

and promise he will not cheat

he advise me to complete

my college degree.

while waiting for him.

i love happy ending

and i hope his not pretending

and everything is really working...

and they are preparing for my big wedding.