IF ANYTHING HAPPENS TO ME.

THIS IS A VERY IMPORTANT POST.
LAST FRIDAY (20 JUN 2014) THERE'S THIS CAR WHO KEEPS FOLLOWING ME, FROM THE UITM ROUND ABOUT.  I WAS COMING OUT FROM THE MCDONALD SIDE AND HE KEPT FOLLOWING ME UNTIL I TURNED 12 O'CLOCK. HE DROVE BESIDE ME AND KEPT STARING AT ME. THERE WAS SOMEONE IN THE PASSENGER SEAT BESIDE HIM. BOTH ARE INDIANS. AND THEY LOOK LIKE THEY'R GONNA CAUSE HARM TO ME. AND I WAS VERY SCARED. THEN SOMEWHERE I LOST HIM.
THEN YESTERDAY, THAT MEANS (24 JUN 2014) I SAW A VERY SUSPICIOUS CAR PARKED BESIDE THE SLOPE NEAR THE SHOP HOUSE TAKING PICTURES. THE CAR WAS A PROTON SAGA.
THERE'S 3 GUYS (ALSO INDIANS) *. TWO INFRONT AND 1 STANDING BEHIND. THERE'S THIS ONE GUY WITH LONG HAIR RESTING OR LEANING ON THE FRONT HOOD OF THE CAR AND THERE'S ANOTHER GUY HOLDING A DSLR CAMERA STANDING BESIDE THE DRIVER'S SEAT. WHILE I WAS COMING UP THE SLOPE, HE TOOK PICTURES DIRECTLY FACING MY DIRECTION. 
THEN A MINUTE OR TWO LATER I PARKED MY CAR AND WENT BACK TO THE SAME SPOT, THE CAR WAS GONE. NO ONE WAS THERE. 
I'M FREAKING SCARED RIGHT NOW. I AM GONNA CALL THE POLICE IF ANYTHING SUSPICIOUS HAPPENS TO ME AGAIN TODAY... OR I'M GOING NUTS.... IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!
IF ANYONE'S READING THIS BLOG.... I'M GONNA NEED ALL THE HELP....
* I DON'T MEAN ANY OFFENSE JUST IN CASE.

please kill me

At first I thought of writing this post in Chinese.
but If i really did, it would take me years to complete it..
I realise that after leaving my school,
I would never really use Chinese language again...
No more writing crazy essays that I never understood.
No more Chinese lesson that would make me crazy..
and no more Chinese homework that I never do on my own...
It's not like I hate Chinese language...
it's my mother tongue but It's very difficult to master.
My friend asked me is it racist to say that Chinese speaks the Ching-Chong language?
Come to think of it, i feel kinda sad that I would not be using it as frequently as now.
Last Saturday, I met up with some old friends.
I'm kinda glad that they still remember me...
And i'm also kinda glad that they have bonded with my arch enemy.
You would think that it was weird, that I would be glad they've bonded.
But you know it's better to have one less enemy...

Well I hope that you all are living your life...
and make the correct decision...
I'll see you guys soon...if you guys can still remember me...
You guys are the reason my high school years are filled with craziness and stupidness...

looking back, it was like yesterday was my first day in school.
and I was looking for my class...
I was so relieved that I saw some of the familiar faces from primary school.
Then suddenly, here I was, my last day in that crazy school.
I still can't believe that I was out in this world...
it's not the same like last time...
because this time, I came out first....
and all my friends are not here with me...
So it's like i'm stark naked alone in this big world..
it was exciting and fun..

well guys, I hope that I still have the chance to see you all again~
be safe...

just some cheesy feelings....

Well Monday was my last day in school.
I should have brought a camera.
I went to finish my documents in private..
and only some of the closest friend know what was happening.
I was kinda sad that when they were so calm....
but well I guess that's a good thing to...
I don't expect them to be crying and stuff...
I don't need them to dwell over it...
I guess I should've notice that my time was up..
when I got a new seat, beside a guy who tries to be friendly...
I'm really sorry to that guy, nothing personal..
It's just that I don't usually talk to people like you about my personal things...
You might find it hard to believe..but...
It was quite difficult for me,
since my everyday life basically surrounds my four friends..
we were like a sitcom..well, atleast that's what I thought.
so, when I got a new seat it was kinda weird...
it seems like I'm out of my world..
I'm out of Earth and living in Mars..
I try very hard to get back to Earth but...
you know earth has an Ozone layer which is kinda hard to get through..

I always say that school was boring...
but thanks to my four friends and the one who's always cooks cheesy egg.
I always manage to get through my day...
Although sometimes I let my temper get the better of me,
you guys still put up with my quirky ways and bad temper...
I know that you guys won't understand maybe half of the words here...
but I'll try to write the next in Mandarin...
It won't be as touching as this post.
but I'll do my best to try to express my feelings that I usually don't say out loud.
I've always believed that quality is more important than quantity...
and that's why I trust that I just need these few friends that can be trusted..
rather than a bunch of fair weathered friends....

I don't know bout you guys..
but I've always trusted you all...
I've never doubted you guys..
well sometimes. but not always only the right time....
anyway...
this Sunday, I'll be going on my last class trip...
and I pray that everything will go smoothly..
I meant not the road which can cause accidents..
well....
my next post will be after my class trip...
and those will be dedicated* to my few close friends...

*meaning, specially for.

misunderstood

there comes a time when everything goes very very wrong.
and nothing you do seem to fix them...
whatever you say just doesn't make things right.
people you know will just turn their back towards you.
it's like the dark clouds are following you forever ..
and you are stuck in the world of bad luck..
all the choices you make doesn't seem right at all..
well if you are going through those things...
you should just hang tight, hold on to a hand rail...
cause it's just a roller coaster going up hill....
when you look back you'll see that it's the fun part of your life...

i know i make bad choices and bad decision.
but i don't regret things..like not right after i do it...
takes awhile to let it sink in then i'll say i won't regret it....
but you know...
since no one from the future came back to stop me...
so how bad could it be....

well everyone has a dream...
i dreamed of being a movie star and a singer...
but well i don't think it's coming true....
because i'm afraid to leave my comfort zone...
i'm just waiting for someone to realize that i could be an actress....
but well....guess i'm gonna forget bout it....
after all they say follow your dreams....
but dreams only appear when you fall asleep....

i hope that the choices i make will not destroy mankind..
or even put the earth in danger....
or else i'll be the villain...
anyway,
to those who are reading...
good luck in your life...
don't regret anything....
unless you married the wrong person...
then you should regret about it...
and then get a divorce... as soon as possible....

not so into it

well,
looks like everyone is starting to abandon facebook....
and the new checking your facebook everyday is now NOT checking your facebook everyday...
i don't know watsup with everybody...
but i feel like everyone's busy....
busy with their life...
while i'm happily on my holiday....
free and easy.....
with people i love and place i like.....
now everyday i'm just playing by the seaside....
i've used about 2 bottles of sunscreen..
i hope i don't get sun burned like last time....
well....
again....
everyone's like not touching the internet or just trying to get away from me....
but just so you know....
i'll soon disappear from beside you....
i won't be there everyday to provide you with sarcasm and hate...
so....
yeah..
i hope that when i'm gone you will remember me....
i want you all to be happy, but at the same time remember me....
i don't want y'all to be sad but just remember me.....
i hope people remember me as the ever loving, kind and sophisticated girl...
that i'm not....
but whatever it is.. just remember me... use your own way...
cause you'll never know when you will need my help,
or when will i need your help....

hearts, kisses, chocolate, flowers, valentines and stuffs but not teachers

not long to valentine.
well some will be happy and excited..
and at the same time there will also be some people not so excited...

well myself,
i won't get my hopes too high....
the higher your hopes...
the more disappointed you'll be....

anyways,
i think maybe it's because of valentines day,
some off our teacher have been quite perky and high strung.
some little teensy weensy bit will just set their timer off..
they are like those time bombs that will explode at anytime...
a lot of teachers are like in a very bad mood....
maybe they are like mad at their husband....
or..
just mad that the students are receiving presents and not them...
they could also be mad that they have no one to celebrate valentines day...
so, warning to students!
be extra careful during these few days..
before and after valentines sad and upset teachers will appear.

to those with partners,
happy valentines.
and to those who haven't found their significant other,
i will also wish you happy valentines and kisses..
so that you could run off and show off to your friends that they are not the only one who gets sweet messages from their boyfriends....

anyways,

happy valentines.

Demons and Satan

Everyone has an angel and a demon inside....
I just realize that my angel is between a demon and a satan...
But my faith is still unshaken...
I know I may not go to heaven
And I won't be easily beaten 
For I have reawaken 
From my previous engagement.

I went to the silent graveyard...
Sat by a tombstone
And waited for the twilight zone
I was all alone
Staring at my phone
I might be waiting to hear my ring tone
But I knew what I had was all gone.

The chilly wind cut my face like a sharp knife....
You could hear the leaves rustling...
It was a quiet night,
No howling wolves or owls giving you those beady looks.
I just need a place to get away.
To let my mind rest in peace and quiet...
I felt comfortable in this cemetery.
It's like my own get away spa resort.

The moon is like my night light,
Just slightly above me,
Giving out a glow,
Not to bright,
But bright enough for me to explore my thoughts.
The tombstone I'm leaning on feels cool
And the grass is a bit moist.
Just the right position..
I'm comfy and cosy.
Time to see the result of the fight between Demons, Satan and Angel.