i didn't mean it

i didn't mean to ruin your lunch or whatsoever that i couldn't care..
but so far all this shit that has been bothering me,
is getting too much~
i'm getting too numb to take care of all this~
if i could just let go of something~
just one thing~
but ofcourse one is exam and the other is you~
can't you see that you're smothering me?
i'm becoming so tired,
so much more aware~
every step that i take,
is another mistake i make~
every second i waste,
is more than i can take~~
i can't posibly let go of my test and exams~
but i also can't let go of you!!!
TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO??

but i've become so numb~
until i can't feel you there~

other than that~
yesterday~
Ms Jane Dino n me went to lunch~
and Mr Johnny came~
It was quite weird though
but i enjoyed it~

special thanks to:
Ms Jane Dinosor
Mr Johnny

I FREAKING HATE THIS WORLD!!!!!!
JUST HOPE THAT I CAN THROW EVERYTHING AWAY!!!!
AND LIVE MY PRECIOUS LIFE PEACEFULY!
JUST DON'T BOTHER ME!!
UNTIL ALL MY FREAKING EXAMS ARE ALL OVER!!!!!!

DO YOU GET THAT, WORLD??!!!!!!

許久

[一见钟情就像宇宙两块陨石撞在一块 - 没有技巧，只有运气.]

所以在多的技巧也是没用的~
我想甘愿不做了~
靠运气了~
可是如果真的是靠运气~
我就可以不用想了~
什么都做不到了~

我没有可能看着一个个跟你谈俩爱的女生离开你，
然后又来另一个~
然后再分手~
我再开心一下~
过几个月的下课~
再看你们俩一起吃饭的背影~
我已经忍无可忍~
恨不得那个女生的背影是我的~

[好人有好报]
拼音：hao ren you hao bao
解释：一句以前比较聪明的人用来骗比较笨的人的话。

我帮助有需要的人，找到它们一直在寻找的东西。
帮助他们，使他们更靠近他们的梦想。
缩短他曾经有一度认为那是一段不可能的距离。
这些不可能的事~
我都干了~
难道我不值得拥有一点好报吗？
如果你讲：我喜欢的人跟我讲话是好事~
那你希望他跟你讲：“我喜欢你..........的好朋友。”

这点我不怕告诉给你知道~
反正你都有再看~
你很贱~
还有：

[女人贱了容易赚钱，男人有钱容易很贱]

DANG IT~

well fo starters~
i got stuck in the rain for nearly 4 hours~
i'm soaking wet (well not really soaking, juz got a few splash)~
but~
i'm happy for me~
for getting such gentle yet cold blooded friend~
apparently~
some idiot i met during holiday just called me a b*tch~
luckily when i was recovering from my shock (in the middle of the rain)~
Damon came back and surprised me~
well~
i'm already in shock~but damon gave me another~
so~i'm stunt~
Damon heard what he said to me~
and caught up with him~
and~
the next scene is really grusome n not a pretty view~
i don't think i should tell~
anyway~
that guy~
eventually ended up in the hospital~
(so take notes to those who called me b*tch in my face,don't know where you're gonna end up. if lucky, u might be in the trash can otherwise the graveyard)
after thinking~
i think i'm a human after all~
how good am i to send him to the hospital after what he did to me~
i'm that good because i learnt that~

focus on the main thing,
and not on the things that made you angry.

i tried telling Damon this sense~
but he said:" he hurt you? so give me 1 good reason not to hurt him."
aww~
how sweet is that~
obviously i can't find a good reason to give him~
my Damon reminds me of the Damon in Vampires diary~
they both came out of no where (except that my Damon is not thousand years old)~
they both are kinda cold blooded~
and they are every girls dream to be with~

anyway~
i think that i should't write those sad things~
that would upset me~
just a simple question to you guys:

what kind of friends in the world would doubt their own friends??

ans: that kind are those not meant to be your friend.
(this is just a piece of advice specially to YOU)

STRUGGLE FOR PLEASURE

that was the first day we met~
you never talked to me~
but when i always turn my head up~
i will see you looking at me~
and you will turn your head away~
i tried talking to you~
but you always avoid answering me~
finally one day you told me the truth~
my heart lighted up~
i saw a sparkle inside your eyes~
but you said we could never be together~
my heart truly broke then~
i knew it was breaking~
bcoz i could feel it inside shattering like glass~
with each needle-like shard skewering flesh inside my chest~
needless to say~
it hurt~

i remember watching you leave~
farther and farther into the endless crowd of people~

every time i see you~
i begged you with my eyes~
please~
tell me why can't we be together~

i won't stop till i get the answer!

i swear!