LOL~~

you know~

i know that holidays are the best time to think bout shits you have done for the whole year~~

you think and you'll post things on FB or twit bout it~~

that stinks~

you know~

cause while you were busy thinkin~
i was busy partying!!!

i got kicked out of 3 bars and 2 pubs!!!

ain't that funny?? mate!!

i can't stop laughing~~

i think i'm drunk or high~~

last night i was texting someone~

while i fell asleep in the pub~~

well i woke up just in time for the song American Idiot~~

love that song~~~

todays another day to break my record~~

some of you might think that i'm just gloating or boasting~~

but you know what?

i am bloating!!! hahaha~~~

just so you know~

i felt so hurt whenever it comes to hols~

you think that i'm dead and block me out of FB or unfollow me in twit~~~

and in FB you tag d friends that we always hang out together~

but you didn't tag me~~

and i'm talking bout you Jenna!! and you Beck Collins!!!!

I KNOW IT IS CHILDISH TO POST SOMETHING BOUT YOU IN FB AND NOT TAG YOU~

So you listen up if i'm dead you better not come looking for me tonight!!! Mike's gonna take me to that bar he's been talking bout for weeks!!!!!!

hahahaha!!! who's laughing now!!??!!!!

ME!!!!

GOD AM I DRUNK??

MY HEAD IS SO HEAVY~~ NIGHT GUYS~~ OR MATE~~

start to be...

can i be more clearer?

no~

another thing about me,

i don't make mistakes twice...

well i make it 3 or more times, to make sure....

but there is one thing i will not be wrong again..

my choice is clear..

i won't be with you again!

never!

anyway~

the other day i was on the flight from sydney to melbourne~

and guess what?

i met a guy~

a real guy~

who is an aussie~~

and guess what again?

it is official!

we are a thing!!

congrat me!!

well his name is Mike~

and during the 1 and a half hour flight~

we got along very well~~~

and we are a thing!!

this is my first time getting along well~~

he loves chinese food~

and i love australia~

he asked me what did i love about australia~

and i said him~

awh~~ how cute?

well i'm gonna post a photo of us together in the next post~~~

looking forward tomorrow~~~

he's bringing me to the beach~~~^^

oh~

and another thing~

i'm closing my fb account~~~

Mike said he'd like a non FB holiday~~

see you guys in a month~~~

bye~

we're going to the Bondi beach tomorrow~~

你？令我难过？不可能！

你不会是伤害我的那个~
也不会是影响我的那个~
更不会是感动我的那个~~~
你可以把我从窗口推下~
可是你知道我会从新站起~
我可能需要一些时间恢复平常心~
可是你知道~
我是会回来的~~
你可以模仿我的发型~
我的穿着~
可是你是永远模仿不到我那很吊的样子~
和那很吊的气质~~

一切从0开始~~

我承认~
这个题目很好~~
我也承认~
是我从杯子脸那里偷来的~~^^

其实我真的不知道~
这几天到底是什么feel~~
又不像假期~
也不像上课~
到底是什么？？？

你会不会有时候再想-他到底正在做什么？
你会不会有一股冲动想要sms他？
不管是简单的一句‘生日快乐’还是‘考试加油’？
其实~
想要做什么就做什么吧~~
人生有几场‘锄大地’？
今天的那两场~
就算是给你赚到的~~

还有的就是~
如果你曾经错过了一个人~
不是那种悄悄地走过的~
是那种很明显让你知道他要你的~
如今~
他已经走去了别人的身边~
请你不要那么自私~
你已经把他当小丑玩了那么多年~
你就不能大方一点把他让出来吗？
我果然看错了你~
我以为你是一个大方的人~~
好歹你也活多过我一年啊~
巫聊阿~

好不谈那个巫聊的人了~~~
前天~
也就是星期六~~
我遇到了某人的弟弟~~
我发现到，
我跟他（弟弟）好像很有缘~~
可是~~
我每次我都只遇到你弟弟~~
我都没有遇过你！！
haiz~
可惜不是你哥~~~
sad到~~~

最后~
杯子脸~
要祝人家的话~
趁早阿~~
还有不到12小时哦~~
21世纪的妖怪~~
你也要加油哦~~
不错啦~
今天你智商上升了一点~~
学会玩‘锄大地’~~
加油~~
还有那一直看盗墓日记的小姐~~
你也要加油了~~
你说过会来盗我设计的坟墓~~~
等着你哦~~

starts with Everything

i don't know what relationship we're in~
can anyone tell me?
i hate this kind of relationship~
you are neither mine nor other people's~
but i don't care who you belong to~~
as long as you don't belong to anyone, you are mine~

you! that bitch!
you make me sick~
i can honestly tell you that~
if you wanna play this game~
be my guest~
you come as a bitch~
i'll play with you as a slut~
i could be a slut or a model student~
trust me, you don't wanna see the bitch inside me!

you sick, sick psycho slut....
you think that all the guys will just wait for you?
and you could just treat them like a piece of shit?
you have played him for a few years.....
and now he has got his eyes back~
he is now able to see again~

I'LL MAKE HIM FORGET ABOUT YOU!
just wait and see!
i'll do it!

are you serious!!!

ARE YOU F*CKING SERIOUS??!!!
you choose this time to come back???
i thought we broke up???
i thought you were the one who say you can't forget about her???!!!
if you can't forget bout her, please stay away from me.
i just don't want her in my life.
she is just a part of my carbon dioxide....
something that should not be in my body.
until you can keep her away from your mind~
you are only welcome in my life....

please!
please!!
please!!!
i hate sharing you with others!
especially your brain and thoughts with other people!
i hate it when you are thinking bout her and...
i'm infront of you!
and i hate it when you compare me with her!

please f*ck off!!!
until you clear your f*cking mind!!!

21世纪的妖怪

我想问~
有谁会忘记拿电话出去？
尤其是我们这些小孩子~
电话对我们来说是蛮重要的~
在尴尬的场面它是救命恩物~
可是~
我有一个朋友时常会忘了带~
今天~
这位妖怪来了我的家~~
感谢着妖怪陪了我整个下午~~

其实~~
我已经是在放假的mood了~~
请不要在这时候来破坏我的好mood~

真地可惜~
我比你来迟一步，你比我早走一步~
一个人的哀伤之情，是很难掩饰的~
尤其是在了解你的人的面前~
如今，全部都变了~
你也变了~
他也变了~
她也变了~
他们也变了~
可能我也变了~
我只是不喜欢她也在你旁边~
她也在我身边~
我不想对不起她~
可是~我真地很喜欢你在我旁边~
我只希望你可以了解~
我不只是那么好心的一个人~
我是不会让人爬上我头的！

You little slutty b*tch

I know that you are single~
But please get your slutty little finger of him!
Even though he is not near me~
That doesn't even mean you can touch him~
I believe that he will be clear enough to see that
I F*CKin HATE YOU!!!
Just like my friend says~
I don't like tha one I like to like the one that I dislike,
And I dislike the one whom I dislike to like the one i like!
So get your freaking bitchy whore liked face and body away from him!

华语的~

我已经很久没有用华文来写了~
如果作文问题卷格式像blog~
我觉得应该可以拿高分一点的咯~
果然很难写~~
你们真的很厉害写的咯~
华文的~
华文的~
华文的~
真地很累啊~~~
人生最遥远的距离~
是~
你要回到家的时候才发现家外面有夜市~
要退后又太迟，要前进又堵车~
这时候是最令人讨厌的~~
真是很闷得一天啊~~~
我们在看鬼戏，又要看教务主任有没有巡楼。。
我觉得这样还比在看的鬼戏刺激~
好像自己活在什么逃难电影里~~
自己突然变成了罪人~

还有今天有某人说自己的眼皮很美~~~
我想说~你在说那句的时候~我真的是刚好咳嗽~不是要酸你~~
真地是在咳嗽~~
还有~~请眼皮小姐~不用做我地代言人~我每那么出名到需要一个代言人~~
也不用帮我宣传~~谢谢~~这些宣传费等你需要我会慢慢补回给你的~
就等着你和有路吧~~

路是人走出来的~
哪里里有人~哪里就有路~
我今天真地很给脸了~~~
写了几么长的一篇~~

please let go of me

the guilt in my heart is eating me out!

sorry~

i know i'm not suppose to...

but~

i didn't know why i acted that way...

i guess not seeing you means hard time!

i'm sorry~

i promise you i have no feeling for her~

please just let me go~

i don't wanna let my feelings pull you down....

there will be a better person waiting for you....

just not me...

just know that you will always be part of my heart....

so can someone take this guilt out of my heart!!!

it is making me suffocate!!

something in my eye may let you think that we're a thing~

but~

i'll let her go~

if you could just take me in~

i'm gonna end up with you no matter how~

leaving the others behind....

i just want a simple life...

a person i like with me....

i like you...but it's not natural....

i know some might say we're a weird couple...

i won't care what people say~

i'll just make sure you are happy and that's all~

i don't care what they think~

i don't care what they say~

just we are who we are!

i thought that we were fine....

but i know that i've been such a jerk~

i can't even admit that we're together....

i know that i've broken a few promise....

i'll pay it back just as soon as we make things clear between us~

and you and i~ will be official~~

for once can i get a less complicated life!

please just give me some time~

don't leave me~

i know we are gonna have a quite happy ending~

cause people are learning to accept~~

i'll try....

i think that i've already had enough of it!
and this is the last time!
i think that life is too short for this~
and i want back my ignorance and bliss!!!!
give it back please!
i can't give a reason for me to be me!
i'll do what i want and what i please!
whatever i love i'll do it!
you will pay for all your sins!
and i'll make sure that karma f*ck you up~
i'll be eating pop corns and drinking soda...
while watching karma fu*k you....
you'll be serve what you deserve!!!!!
our lives are like a movie....without background music & rehearsal...
sometimes it's a comedy...
sometimes it's a f*cking horror movie....
but most of the time...
we are all just sitting on see-saw...
we've had our ups and down.....
and i try to keep myself up!!!
i try hard!!!
just to push me up!!!!
keep me up!!
push everything away!!
i'm always right at every wrong thing~~
is that right or wrong??
SOMEBODY TELL ME!!

i think....

first of all....
i would like to say sorry for those who got scolding....
although one of them did not belong to my group...
but you are however consider my responsibility.... 
i know exactly how you all feel that time....
and i am also not having a great time...
even though i'm just temporary....
but you all are still with me.....under my umbrella....
but i'm so sorry that i didn't stood up for you all that time....
he was just so out of control....
and at that time nothing i say or do would calm him down....
so...
i will promise you all that i won't just sit there and let him keep scolding you all....
i'm really sorry for not standing up for you all that time....
i can say that i'm really pissed of that time...
and i'm sure i can't keep myself cool....
when i'm f*cking angry,
anything i say will sound rude and sarcastic....
( i think you all know that)
so just not to mess things up...
i chose to keep quite and finish him up later.....
i hope you all understand....
I CAN PROMISE YOU,
IT WON'T JUST END LIKE THIS!
THIS WILL NOT BE THE ENDING....
I MUST HAVE THE LAST LAUGH!
i will do something....
i will take this problem out and discuss it with the whole group.....
that.... 
I WILL TAKE CARE OF MY OWN GROUP AND ANYTHING TO DO WITH MY GROUP!!!
THIS IS MY GROUP, I'M IN CHARGE, AND WHEN I DON'T THINK IT IS A BIG DEAL, NO ONE CAN SAY IT IS A BIG DEAL!!!
I WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU GET THIS CLEAR!
MY GROUP, MY PROBLEM, MY STYLE TO SOLVE!
I CHOOSE TO SOLVE OR NOT TO SOLVE!
AND THAT IS MY CHOICE!

and secondly,
to the guy who scolded my group.....
thanks for your concern of MY GROUP....
but....
as you know PLEASE LET ME TAKE CARE OF IT!
coz IT IS MY GROUP!!! NOT YOURS!!!
JUST TAKE CARE OF YOU OWN GROUP AND LEAVE MINE ALONE!!!
i don't wanna use the kind of words here.....
and my momma told me not to....
so i won't...
but please, if you come poking your nose in my group again....
i'll make sure you DON'T find your nose!
DO YOU UNDERSTAND??!!

feelings~

sometimes after i read them~
i feel like u think you are the one left out~
but do you know how it hurts when you talk about someone~
and i was standing there like air~~
like i'm just a ghost floating by~
i am worst than a ghost~
atleast you get scared of ghost~
but i'm just like dust....
you don't need dust but they are just everywhere~
and you say they are just useless~

after you moved away~
i feel like we are so long apart~
we don't have things in common anymore~
you talk to her~
and i don't know how~
every time~ you are with your gang,
and she's with another gang~
and i'm with my table~ just staring at it~
i fit no where~ i really don't know what you are talking about anymore~~

you say you helped her~
but when i join in~
you just say that i'm just blocking your way~

you know what?
i don't mind what you think about me~
but just tell me, okay?
tell it to me~not everybody else...
it's about me...and i'm d only one who doesn't know~~~
it's funny~

i just listen to people who are important to me~...
other than that i don't care~~
i am only responsible for what i say...
but if you are a friend to me.... if you have known me for over 3 years~
yes you are my close friend...
and as a friend i would like to know what's going on with your life~~~
i just don't know what reaction should i give...
it's not like i have emoticons to choose after listening to what you say~~~
i have just a little bit more expression than Kristen Stewart....
so please~
if you feel like i'm leaving you out~
come back in~
and if you feel like leaving me out~
please may I go in??

i guess it's ok

just trying to do something for you....
i still can't get my mind off you....
in my mind you will always be the perfect one....
well, not as perfect as i thought...
cause you are not with me...
if you are with me...
it would be just Perfect.....
i know it is wrong to see you when i'm with someone...
but after seeing you,
i know that we click....
we match....
you know what i'm saying, i know what you are trying to say...
just staring at your pictures makes my day better....
and i just can't wait to see you again....
i hope that we could just enjoy the time we spend together...
enjoy each other...
enjoy the air, the surrounding...
enjoy your voice, like the angels singing....
i'm coming soon.......
just wait... in no time.... we will see each other... just like tomorrow...

like how i have colored my boring text...
you have colored my life...
made my life more exiting...
you were always there when i needed you...
like a ray of sun after a heavy rain...
making me laugh after my whole tiring day...
you complete my day...
you are like the Ellen in my life.... 
you send me to bed with a smile on my face...

Gosh! would you just....

sometimes when you are freaking mad,
you would just wish that people just leave you alone.
but sometimes you would just hope that they come and comfort you,
and when they don't, you get even madder...
well, things like that happen.

let me tell you something i like.
i like asking people things,
when i already know the answer,
just to see if they are lying.
when i know they are lying..
i'll hate them..
and in my heart i'll keep repeating 
you freaky liar, lying your butt off like it's your butt....
anything they do starts to look annoying....
cause when you hate someone,
you automatically block them off....
well there's one friend of mine....
who is like this....

and other times,
i hate it when we're talking...
and someone ignores me...
than they turn back around and asks:" are you talking to me?"
no.... i'm talking to my pen..

i always hope that people would just be them...
and not some fakers.... 
i don't be friend with you cause you are cool or rich or pretty...
you are my friend cause you are just as silly as me..
i don't care if you are black, white or beige,
gay, straight, bi, Lesbian, or transgendered 
as long as we click..
you are my friend..
you just have to be yourself.....

cause babe you were born this way!!!

Today is the day

What if you were just there?
What if you were always the one?
What if there was hope~
But we lost it?
You killed me~
And made me the worst kind of all~
I'm never afraid of anyone~
But now I'm afraid of myself~
What are you?
How can you make me be afraid of myself~
When I'm not even afraid of anyone~
I never knew it was you ~
But you were there all along~
Just try to killed me~
Just one look from you~
I just felt that it was you ~
But you never showed a thing ~
Until that day, they told me~

nothing is wrong!!

nothing is wrong with me!!
and stop commenting that you are straight or bi~~
it's non of you f*cking business!!!!
i choose what i want~
and i like it!!!
i know i'm not famous or whatever~~
but if you are a friend you would support....
it is not like it's you who changed me~~~
it's just me who changed me~~~~~
alright!
i'm still me~~
hey and don't get me wrong~
it is not me who is gay or bi~~
just feel sad for my friend~~
we all know that long time ago~~
well i just knew few weeks ago~~
and hey! i accepted it~
she's our friend, my friend, and yours too~
get over it~ it's not your life....
and i'm not wrong for standing on her side~~
so buzz of she is better than you~~~
she's gay or bi i don't know the difference....
but atleast she has a girl friend~~~
unlike you~~FOREVER ALONE!!!!!!!

HATE TO SAY I MISS YOU

I REALLY DON'T ENJOY SAYING THIS...
BUT I KNOW THAT IT IS COMING FROM MY HEART.....
I..I... MISS YOU....
I REALLY WANTED YOU TO COME BACK....
BUT, I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN....
I CAN'T MAKE UP MY MIND....

ANYWAY~
IT HAS BEEN A SOME REAL TOUGH DAY....
FEW DAYS AGO I GOT LOCKED IN THE BATHROOM....
NOT BECAUSE MY PARENTS LOCKED ME OR WHATEVER...
I NEVER THOUGHT THIS WAS POSSIBLE....
ELLEN WAS TALKING ABOUT HOW PORTIA GOT STUCK IN THE TOILET....
BECAUSE SHE APPLIED TOO MUCH LOTION....
AND I THINK THAT IS JUST SO STUPID...
UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO...
 I BOUGHT A NEW LOTION FROM MARK AND SPENCER....
IT WAS QUITE A GOOD SMELL...
SO I APPLIED A LIL BIT MORE... JUST A LIL BIT MORE.....
AND THEN I GOT STUCK.... TOO BAD I DON'T HAVE A DOOR THAT SLIDES...
BUT I HAVE A TOWEL...
I WIPED MY HAND CLEAN AND TOOK THE LOTION OUT....
THEN I APPLIED IT AGAIN ON THE BED... OUTSIDE THE TOILET.....
WELL NOW I KNOW IT IS POSSIBLE...
EVERY THING IS POSSIBLE UNTIL YOU TRY IT.....

THAT WAS THE STARTING....
THEN, TODAY....
SOME NEW TEACHER CAME IN....
FIRST SHE WENT TO THE WRONG CLASS...
SHE WENT IN TO THE ARTS ROOM...
I HOPE SHE DIDN'T START TEACHING IN THAT ROOM...
CAUSE THAT ROOM IS EMPTY... JUST TABLES AND BOTTLES OF PAINT....
SHE REALISES THAT... AND SHE CAME TO OUR CLASS...
STARTS TEACHING AND STARTS ORDERING US AROUND....
YOU KNOW SHE IS SO BLUR......
JUST TO MESS WITH HER...
FEW OF US CHANGE NAMES BETWEEN US...
JUST TO CONFUSE HER WHILE TAKING ATTENDANCE....
AND WE GOT SO OVER THAT I USED A BOYS NAME...
AND THAT BOY USED MY NAME....
I THINK SHE IS JUST PLAYING ALONG....
HOW CAN SHE NOT REALISE???
MAYBE I HAVE A BOY CUT HAIR......
THE LAST TEACHER CAME IN AND ASKS US TO WRITE AN ESSAY....
THE LAST TEACHER SAYS THAT SHE'S GONNA MARK IT...
AND GIVE IT BACK TO US.... THAT IS JUST TO TEST OUR LEVEL....
THE NEXT DAY...
WE HEARD SOMEWHERE THAT SHE RESIGN, NEVER COMING BACK AGAIN....
I DON'T KNOW IT WAS OUR LEVEL THAT SCARED HER....
WAS IT TOO HIGH FOR HER... WAY ABOVE HER...OR WAY BELOW???
WELL......
I HOPE THAT THIS NEW TEACHER STAYS LONGER.....
OR MAYBE WE WON'T SEE HER AGAIN TOMORROW....?
WHO KNOWS?? MAYBE IT IS OUR DESTINY..... TO NOT HAVE ENGLISH TEACHERS......

NOBODY CAN TEACH US ENGLISH....
I STILL KEEP THINKING....
WILL SHE GIVE US OUR ESSAY BACK??
OR SHE WILL KEEP IT AS REMEMBRANCE OR SOUVENIR FROM OUR SCHOOL??

WELL THIS IS AN ESSAY THAT WILL NEVER COME BACK.............

holss

great holidays~~
great time~
great place~
great sun~

it didn't go as my plan~
but that is also goood~
because it did not go according to my plan~
that is why i met someone at the beach~~
we were just learning how to sail a boat~~
the trainer was teaching another kid~
so we took the boat and went out to the sea~
the trainer agreed but said that we must have trained person~
we lied to him that one of us knew how to sail~
but then there was this guy from somewhere around the earth came~
and said that he was going sailing alone~
we quickly asked if we could join~
he agreed ofcourse~
that was the first day~
then he asked me if i wanted to go sailing tomorrow~
i lied and said no~
cause i can see that Jessica likes him~
the second day~
i went to the library~
somewhere not near the beach~
at the beach we saw some guys playing beach volley~
cool~ and there were girls in bikini~ super hot~
well guess who i bump into? that sailor guy~
his name was Drake~ Just here for the holiday~
just like me~ well i think he said that he was from England~
i asked him~ i thought you were going sailing?
he said it was no fun without me~~ *aww~ how sweet~*
he is super hot~ he has the sweetest mouth~
he thinks that i've never been to Malaysia~
well it is his brain~ i won't correct him or anything~
just incase if he is a cheater or a liar~
every time we meet someone we will ask Do you have Fb? or Twitter?
i asked him~ he said No, but for me he will take the trouble to create an account ~ how very sweet~ but i was thinking are you from the woods? someone who can afford a freaking pent house and a freaking lamborghini can't afford a Fb FREE account?????
this must be a freaking scam, or a cheater~

anyway~
hols is over gonna go back to study~~
i love you holiday~~ 
bye bye sun~
bye bye beach~
bye bye hols~~

镜子外的，也不是我~

镜子里的不是我~
那镜子外的应该是我？
还是不是我？
虽然像我，感觉是我~
可是真的不是我~~
我到底去了哪里？？
有谁可以告诉我？？
我很想知道~
可惜不是我~
站在你旁边的~
在我眼里，永远比我丑~
除非我是那个站在你旁边的人~
拜托你~回来好吗？
你是近视度越来越深，还是围着你的女生越来越丑？
或是你的taste越来越烂？是不是有人逼你跟她在一起，不然就杀你家人？
如果都不是~ 请你回来~

好吗？？
自己走这个桥~真的好像一个无尽头的桥~永远到不到另外一边~

hey ELLEN!

i think that i'm going crazy~~~
after exam keep watching tv and movie~~
just love the show Ghetto Justice 2~
and ofcourse ELlen show!!
does anybody know which show was Ellen in when she played the roll Ellen Morgan~??
would love to watch the show~~

anyway~~
holiday is comming~~~
i think i'm kinda happy today~~
just saying~
good things never come alone~~~
i'm sure of that~
they come with bad things~~
i got the 1st pace in speech competition today~~~
it's no big~~ just joking~~
to me it's a big thing~~
i never thought that i would be the winner~~
just thought that the other competitors were really great too~~

well that's the good thing~
and the bad thing,
not to mention my mark~
that is not the bad thing, it is the worse thing!!
the bad thing is~
i have nothing to do on FRIDAY!!!
it feels like forever alone~~!!
how sad~~

just hope that i could find something to do~~

one last warning~
NEVER EVER MESS WITH MY PHONE!!

to be a smartass, 1st you have to be smart~
or else you would just be an ass~~


SOMETHING TO CHEER YOU UP!!!!!
GOOD DAY!!! =]

OWH!!

shit!
it hurts a lot!
god!!!!
i'm suppose to go for ice skating,
but my freaking friends left me!
they said that Amber's grandmother passed away~
so... fine!
here i am now~
i'm also suppose to study~
but i'm still here writing~
(i'm suppose to do lot's of things)


alright~
i think that my rib cage is scratched or damaged~
i have difficulty in writing and standing and now typing~
this post may hv a lot of typo and shortcuts~
coz i'm too lazy to move my hand~
okay~ here's the truth~
last night i went skateboarding with Nick and The Collins~
Nick was my neighbor but  he moved away last year~
The Collins brother studies at Nick's school~
Nick is just our driver~he skates for fun~
but The Collins are professional skateboarder~
and they were trying to teach me how to do a darkside grind~
i've been learning this from last year~
but somehow i just can't get it right!
few months ago i hurt my arm~
it was just a few scratches,
and now i don't if it's broken or not~
cause i searched the web~
and it said that i have atleast broke 3 of my rib bones~
maybe i should hv just gone to the doctor~

instead of searching the web~


well~
i'm going to buy another skateboard this sunday~
hope this kind!!!


Fine~
better go study~~

HEY YOU!

HEY! HEY YOU!
YEAH! YOU!!
OH GOD! I'M TALKING TO YOU!
THE ONE IN FRONT OF THE COMPUTER~
WATCHA DOIN??


seems like a long time since i last posted~
anyhow~
i'm here again....
actually i was trying to post that ghost story last nite~
but my battery ran low~
and i was too tired to charged~
so that came late today~


Damon is gone for quite a long while~
I don't know when is he gonna pop out~
or where is he gonna pop out~
i believe he'll come visit me sometime~
Ele is going to France next week~
and i'm going to school again tomorrow~ (like everyday)
it's kinda boring~
but, i like to go to school~
i just don't like teachers entering the class and teaching~
i love everything about school~
except for the homeworks, school works, classes, schedule...
and not to mention the teachers~ that is the worst~
other than those, school is still kinda okay~


WHERE ARE THE HOLIDAYS!!!!
I FEEL LIKE HAVING ONE~!!!


it sucks!!
four days in a row!
and i didn't get to see you~
where have you gone?
everyday,
i walk by just to see if u r there~
i keep using excuses to go to your class~
but i can't always use the same excuse~~
so it's kinda sad~~


really sad~~~
the maths is strangling me~
the physics is trying to kill me~
the chemistry is helping them to put me into my grave!!
you!! you are such a meanie!!! MEANIE!!!


should be studying by now~
but hey~
who cares~
gonna fly somewhere, next year~
so~~ pretty sure i still have time to watch a movie~~


i keep thinking that maybe it would get me nearly killed~
just to see Christian Bale~
could you imagine that?
there you are, lying on the bed of The Medical Centre of Aurora~
thinking that what's the use of surviving?
how am i going to survive without an eye? or without a left hand？
then suddenly Christian Bale appears~
and says:" hey, how are you? you feeling better?"
i may be crazy or wrong or both~
but i think this logic works~
Christian Bales is a good guy~
YOU ROCK!!

忘記帶鞋回家的孩子

終于補完習了！！
勇敢的晶圓：“不如我們走那個鬧鬼的樓梯啦！”
A樓！聽説那個樓梯口半夜是走不完的，永遠不能到底樓的~
“怕什麽？3，2，1樓的樓梯都有開燈。”
可是，4，3，2 的走廊沒有燈~
我們在4樓補習~
然後，4樓樓梯和走廊都沒燈~
可能之前被困的就是因爲他們以爲其他樓有燈，
所以覺得沒事的啦~
ada jalan就說："等下我們真的是走不完呢？”
我:"走啦喲~”
走著走著，感覺有一陣冷風吹過~
“還是不要走了啦~等下一天我們帶起爬山用具才來~”
走到2樓，有點不甘願~覺得自己很膽小~
結果，還是繞去A樓走~
反正樓梯和走廊都有燈~沒事的~
我們是幸運的生存者~走到了1樓~
回到家~
我才想起~我的臭鞋還留在學校！
算了~原本打算明天才說腳痛還是什麽理由穿拖鞋去上學~
哪里知道老豆死命要我回去拿，他說怕臭味熏死別人，無謂傷害無辜~
好咯~
那一晚又再次的回到學校~
我決定去挑戰鬧鬼的樓梯！
我帶了十字架，佛牌和兩個銀戒子（下了咒語避邪的）~
上到一樓我開始繞到A樓~
踏上第一步，一步，一步~
每一步我都一會擡頭和往後看，
我要確定我是看到下一樓的，還要確定後面沒有什麽殺手~
2樓---3樓---
還有6個梯級就要到4樓了~
我停下喘氣，原來一邊走，一邊磚頭是如此的累啊~
我心想：我明天可以大大聲告訴他們我走過那鬧鬼的樓梯！！
繼續走~
ei？怎麽越走離4樓越遠的？
慘了！我是不是真的。。。
我加快腳步，希望只是錯覺。
快！快！
漸漸的B樓的燈光只是像一顆鼻屎的大小~
我放棄了~
我的腳步慢了下來~
我慢慢的被黑暗吞食~
我拿起我的電話，打開閃光燈~
前面還是無盡頭的黑暗~
也吞沒了我的燈光~
指南針軟件的真動也不動不管我把電話怎麽擺，
針還是很堅持地指北！
算了~我很累啊~坐在原地休息吧~
一蹲下就好像失去了平衡感~
一直往下掉~
掉
掉
掉
掉
。
。
。
。
不知掉了多久，我開始哭了~
我開始後悔~
爲什麽我死都要走這裡？
爲什麽我沒有堅持不要回來學校？
我開始内疚~
我還有欠了很久的報告~
被我玩得那些人~你們真的是好人啊~
我開始傷心~
之前想說的話還沒說出口~
想罵的人還沒罵~
氣死我了~
我閉上眼睛~只希望看見你們~
只是爲了一雙鞋！害我撞鬼~！
我想了很多東西~
我把手伸進口袋抓住了我那兩個銀戒子~
一個是老媽送的，代表親情。
一個是另一個很久以前對我蠻重要的人送的，代表友情。
這兩個是我最珍貴的東西~兩個都用聖水沖過~都被詛咒過。
我身上還有一條鏈是東非的一個女巫送的~
希望不會遇到什麽妖怪~
我突然看見了一個小孩~
超恐怖的~ 可是很榮幸遇到一個像人的東西~
那小孩坐在那裏畫畫~近看，原來他在畫的是很多尊墓碑~
每一個上面都有我的名字~
-“喂！死小孩，你智障啊？我活生生站在你前面啊！”
-“你也知道我死了。我在你三嵗那年就死了。”
-“！你知道我是誰？”
- “我就是你。你就是我？”
那裏可能，他是弱智還是真的智障，要不然就是腦殘。
傻子來的是嗎？
慢慢的四周的黑暗被掀開了~
好像有人在翻開一本書~
一絲的陽光透過~可能是在黑暗太久了，習慣了黑暗，突然覺得陽光很刺眼。
w=fs
w=1/2mu^2-1/2mv^2
  =1/2m(u^2-v^2)
..........
很亂啊！！
我回來了？奇怪~剛才那個智障畫的墳墓跟我平常畫的一樣~
難道真的是我？
什麽鬼意思？我怎麽會咒我自己呢？應該不會笨到在墓碑寫我的名吧？
啊！

我的鞋！！！

a lil change might b good

first day of exam~
tired, lethargic, hope to get some sleep, dizzy after all those numbers and x..


dear math:
just face it, your 'x' is long gone... no use finding x anymore...
just get up, and move on!

what if algebra teacher was really just a pirate..

and they are using us to find the 'x'??

some sick joke i read on the internet...
i really missed those times where there are numbers in Maths...
and not x, y, a and b...

normal is good~

but sometimes,

we all need some changes in our life...

i'm starting to accept the fact that you are gone..

and no longer mine...

well you can see that clearly...

cause i think i like my sister~~

i'm not a lesbian or a homosexual~~

whatever, no use explaining...

tomorrow's our school special holiday..
so i get to stay home, to do some 'revision' or 'studying'.
definition of studying:
book open at one side, with computer on, and phone by your side..
anyway..
i tried to sneak out today~
to get a break before the real exam comes.. to relax my mind...
mom says if you rest after hard work.. you deserve it.
but if you rest before taking a rest.. you're just lazy...
i accept it, but i don't agree.

there is one guy who is dating A but still crushing on B..

and this guy is a cheapskate.

after breaking up with A and still tells her to keep in touch..

it's like kidnapping A and let her go and say keep in touch....

well that's just sad...

i'm really dumb for believing you....
i'm really dumb for choosing this class...
i'm really dumb to let you talk me into doing this really dumb thing...
but in another way...
i'm really smart to realize it is dumb to believe you..
i'm really smart to choose this class and make full use of it... that's why i met another you.
i'm really smart to let the plan back fire on you....


i'm really dumb for thinking i'm really smart...
i'm really smart for realizing that i'm really dumb....

sorry for not party rocking??

i was freaking party rocking,
when you freaking bang into my life..
just like this we party rock all night..
and i told myself:" what the f*ck?"
i called my friend Johnnie
and said:" Johnnie le gente esta muy loca!"
haha~~
listening to these few song while writing this post~

so little update bout what's going on in my life~
exam these few days~~
really hate it~
but still relaxing~~
i need a hero~
something tells me you're a hero~
and you know how to save me~
anyway~
next week is the real big exam!!
but, i'll be going out to watch movie with some dudes~
and ma cool friends~
just to chill~ and be LOCA~
ALL NIGHT, ALL DAY....

kay, that's all for today~

OFFICIALLY GOTTA KICK U OUTTA MA LIFE!!

I REALLY REALLY REALLY CANT STAND IT ANYMORE~
FIRST THIS IS A POST I'LL WRITE TO LET MY FRUSTRATIONS OUT~
BUT MAINLY I'LL BE JUST SCOLDING THOSE BITCHES~
IF YOU'RE UNDER 16, U MIGHT WANNA LEAVE THIS PAGE...
THIS PG16 POST MAY CONSIST OF VIOLENCE, IMPROPER LANGUAGE AND OTHER ELEMENTS.
SO IF U'R OVER 16 ITS OK~

where do i even start~
today is sports day~
happy~
kinda happy~
then i found you flirting all around again!
never mind~
you are not mine anymore so~
why should i care~
thinkin of it~
technically i can't call that girl u;r flirting with is a bitch~
so ~ in this case who do i call a bitch~
you? her ? or is it me after all?
you can say i'm jealous.
but cool down~
i'm not like those other girls who will start a world war 3~
i will just end the world~like 21/12/2012~

so back around~
i was on duty when i saw a guy from the school across the road~
he is kinda cute, tanned and a squarish chin~
tall of course~ he came over while i was half daydreaming~
just a quick chat~ it seemed that we have met before during some meeting~
but i'm sure that i would have remembered such cute face!~
still trying to recall if i'd seen him before~
i was suppose to stand there whole day~ 
but after lunch i snuck back to the audience~
just to see the other guy run~

hopefully i can say some encouraging words to you~
well~
you two (don't get this wrong there are total 3 guys in this post, this 2 is another 2 not that flirty guy) were running~
so i didn't know who to cheer for~
so i shouted for both~ 
and now i'm mute~
but if i'd have to lose my voice to get your attention~
i would! a thousand and a hundred times! i would~
cause after that you asked me:"are you okay?"
for this i've been very happy for the rest of the day~