coolest birthday

18th of March

the day when I was brought to this world~

the day my mom suffered~

everyone could have a birthday party~

but how many 16 year-old could have a birthday party.....

at a GRAVEYARD!!

how cool was that??

everyone could crash a birthday party~

but not everyone or thing could crash a party in the cemetery...

i was lucky to have this birthday party~

it was like a Halloween party to me~

cool costumes,

gothic make up...

the venue it self was eerie enough~

i don't have to spend much to decorate~

so i saved quite a lot~

 half way between my party~

there was a few kids who came by~

i thought they were lost kids~

so i invited them to my party as well~

after that~

a tall guy came~

and claimed to be their father~

he was wearing something like halloween costume~

below is something that looks like his clothes

i tried drawing it~

but i just can't draw the details...

so instead i found this pic online.... 

kinda looks the same~~

he's pale~

but sharp features~

high nose~

dark mysterious blue eyes~

he looks like a character from those horror story~

he apologize for leaving his kids astray~

and flashed a thousand watt smile~

and left~

till now i still can't forget his smile~

this mysterious guy~

girls like mysterious and dangerous guys~

i don't mind having ghostly kids~

and a ghostly handsome boyfriend~

hope to see this guy again~

I hate you

this word i've been meaning to tell many people.
but
i still can't say it~
why?
coz i think i still have some feelings left somewhere
i'm not all cold blooded.
juz going to be
i've sworn not to say anything bout it
but all i can tell is that
today is a very hateful day
firstly,
all my exams fail
then,
i have to live my rest of the year with a person
i mentally dislike.
u can call me wateva names u all like.
but as long as my brain is still working,
i'll never forgive you!!
if you are readin my blog.
i'm tellling you!!
 it is u!

later in the afternoon,
i was suppose to attend a meeting.
but i'm really sorry for leaving suddenly.
cause if not i'll not b able to get home on time.
besides all these~
i'm really lookin forward to the day we go and have
FUN!!!
really need a good rest~
i just can't believe it~
i really did put in my hardwork.
but all it did was just became worst!
i really dont understand how the logic works.
first,
people studies, get good grades.(most of them)
people who don't study, get bad grades.(some of them)
so i decided to study!
wateva~
mayb my brain is really not meant for studying..
or maybe those subjects just isn't my type...
it could even be my DNAs are not use to studying...
or else it's my...
i really can't think of any reasons,
why i got a bad grade even though i studied..
JUST REALLY DON'T GET IT...
god's really unfair...
but come to think of it...
god treats everyone unfair...
doesn't that makes god fair?