Cry your fckin eyes out

There will always be a point in your life that you will have to cry your eyes out.
At that moment you will think that is the worst part of your life.
The most suffering part. But try looking past that part.
If what you see is more suffering, then you might as well just end it here and now.
What's the point of struggling.
You dare not let go because of the memories you have.
You are afraid that it might not be the same as before.
Well stuff you think that is important or happy.
Might be different from what others think. Even the closest person to you.
Stuff that matters the most to you. Might not be the same as other people.
Happy memories of yours might not be theirs.
What you think it's priceless memories
People might think it's just one of those days.
Stuff you care about most
Is not what they care about
Evryone has their priority
But what's sad is that they are your priority, but you are not theirs.

its gonna end, i knew it

Things that lasts forever is either fake or untrue.
I've had enough of the lies, the quarrels, the fights and shit.
I know it's gonna end somewhere, some time.
I knew it, but I did nothing to stop it.
I don't know what to do.
I'm just gonna lay here.
I'm letting everyone walk over me.
It does not feel good.
But atleast everything is all covered up under the foot prints on my back.
I won't show any emotions,
I won't say anything.
no doubt that deep inside my heart is already shattered into pieces.
no doubt that I have a lot to tell you.
but i know any problem can be solved by expressing your doubt.
but all problems can also start from a single word.
but all i would say is that thanks for the memories.
thanks for the love and warmth you gave.
I have not shed a tear in many years, 
not since the doctor slap my butt when i first pop out of my mom.
i have faced all the barriers in life by confronting them.
but with you,
i have shed tears of joy and sadness.
i know it is gonna end when i started shedding more tears of sadness rather then tears of joy.
this is where things end.
I don't know how we are going to continue.
I can't even stand not seeing you one day.
how can i stand not seeing you everyday?
i just feel like when you are not around me, 
i completely can't have you.
you are always playing your game and watching movie.
when will you have time that fully belongs to me?
I know you have your life.
but you can't expect me to give you everything
and not expecting anything back.

so i guess this is it.