its gonna end, i knew it

Things that lasts forever is either fake or untrue.
I've had enough of the lies, the quarrels, the fights and shit.
I know it's gonna end somewhere, some time.
I knew it, but I did nothing to stop it.
I don't know what to do.
I'm just gonna lay here.
I'm letting everyone walk over me.
It does not feel good.
But atleast everything is all covered up under the foot prints on my back.
I won't show any emotions,
I won't say anything.
no doubt that deep inside my heart is already shattered into pieces.
no doubt that I have a lot to tell you.
but i know any problem can be solved by expressing your doubt.
but all problems can also start from a single word.
but all i would say is that thanks for the memories.
thanks for the love and warmth you gave.
I have not shed a tear in many years, 
not since the doctor slap my butt when i first pop out of my mom.
i have faced all the barriers in life by confronting them.
but with you,
i have shed tears of joy and sadness.
i know it is gonna end when i started shedding more tears of sadness rather then tears of joy.
this is where things end.
I don't know how we are going to continue.
I can't even stand not seeing you one day.
how can i stand not seeing you everyday?
i just feel like when you are not around me, 
i completely can't have you.
you are always playing your game and watching movie.
when will you have time that fully belongs to me?
I know you have your life.
but you can't expect me to give you everything
and not expecting anything back.

so i guess this is it.