Something I call friendship

Do you ever get that feeling,
That you are always the one who care for other people
And they don't appreciate it.
I'm tired of it!
I'm tired to be to the one who's always thinking bout other people.
I'm tired to be the one who has to care about others feeling.
I'm tired to be the one who has to clean up your shit.
Who's gonna think about me?
Who's gonna care bout my feeling?

Who's gonna help me?

I wonder

Will the sun get tired bout 

he's the one always providing us warmth

And yet you ungrateful people say its fucking hot.

I wonder

Will the sun shut down totally one day

And leave us ungrateful beast to chill to death?

Tell me!

Who the fuck is gonna care bout my fucking feelings!

When you have a problem,
I gotta deal with it.
You said you don't like me doing this,
I don't do it. I stop doing it.

But now,

You still say its not enough?

What the fuck do you want me do now?

I've had enough of caring your feelings.
I am your freaking friend for gods sake.

Now what?
After I deal with your fucking problem and your feeling,
You ran off feeling fine as fuck
And leave me feeling like a piece of shit?

What kind of a fucking friend are you?

Stupid fuctards!

I'm sick of it!
From now on,
 I JOY LIM WILL NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANY FCUKING THING WHICH DO NOT INVOVLES ME.
I WON'T FUCKING CARE BOUT YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS

B

Fucked up

I don't know what I'm feeling right now...
It's a mix of anger, a hint of happiness,  a sprinkle of excitement..
And a dash of sadness...
I'm not complicated... But I don't know what am I.....
I don't wanna be a regular kid.....
But I don't want complicated things...
People's mind are complicated, the things they think, and words they say and understand.
They are people who twist your words on purpose and ignore you for what they misunderstood....
The they'll come around and say : I thought you were my friend....
Well if you treat me as a friend, you would have come to me bout the problem you had with me.
And not go round telling other people bout it....
If they can solve our problem,
They can create one...
If you don't have the courage to talk to me bout our problems,
Don't say that we're friends.. Some kind of a friend you are....

Like I said,
I would do anything for my friend , as long as it does not cost my life.
I would totally be nice to you in a bad way....
But If u don't understand it, too bad.....
Guess we're not meant to be...

I have always imagined a world,
 That everyone was pure and not so complicated....
I blame the Internet sometimes......
Wen I was young, I was taught to tell the truth and not lie....
But now, I am taught that I should not put my real info on the net.....
I can't imagine educating a kid in another few years time....
What would it be?
When I was young, people actually interact...
Now, even though I wish you happy birthday on Facebook, but I still don't know you.

Because of the net (partly),
People are getting more coward...
They are afraid to face the real world and the truth....
I hate facing the truth...but It's the truth, you gotta live with it....
I can't say that I'm getting better at acting....
Because I stink at it... If I don't like you, I don't give a fuck bout you....
I just learn to stay as far as possible....
Where there are interactions, there are miscommunication.

When Things get old, people get bored, wishes get fulfilled, targets are achieved,
It's that time when you think that life's nothing but a piece of dried pizza....
It's not tasty anymore, but it'll be a waste to throw it out....
It's time to add some new toppings to it....
New target, new surrounding, new excitement and stuffs.....
I hope I can get trough it.....
I think I'm gonna be ok....