Fucked up

I don't know what I'm feeling right now...
It's a mix of anger, a hint of happiness,  a sprinkle of excitement..
And a dash of sadness...
I'm not complicated... But I don't know what am I.....
I don't wanna be a regular kid.....
But I don't want complicated things...
People's mind are complicated, the things they think, and words they say and understand.
They are people who twist your words on purpose and ignore you for what they misunderstood....
The they'll come around and say : I thought you were my friend....
Well if you treat me as a friend, you would have come to me bout the problem you had with me.
And not go round telling other people bout it....
If they can solve our problem,
They can create one...
If you don't have the courage to talk to me bout our problems,
Don't say that we're friends.. Some kind of a friend you are....

Like I said,
I would do anything for my friend , as long as it does not cost my life.
I would totally be nice to you in a bad way....
But If u don't understand it, too bad.....
Guess we're not meant to be...

I have always imagined a world,
 That everyone was pure and not so complicated....
I blame the Internet sometimes......
Wen I was young, I was taught to tell the truth and not lie....
But now, I am taught that I should not put my real info on the net.....
I can't imagine educating a kid in another few years time....
What would it be?
When I was young, people actually interact...
Now, even though I wish you happy birthday on Facebook, but I still don't know you.

Because of the net (partly),
People are getting more coward...
They are afraid to face the real world and the truth....
I hate facing the truth...but It's the truth, you gotta live with it....
I can't say that I'm getting better at acting....
Because I stink at it... If I don't like you, I don't give a fuck bout you....
I just learn to stay as far as possible....
Where there are interactions, there are miscommunication.

When Things get old, people get bored, wishes get fulfilled, targets are achieved,
It's that time when you think that life's nothing but a piece of dried pizza....
It's not tasty anymore, but it'll be a waste to throw it out....
It's time to add some new toppings to it....
New target, new surrounding, new excitement and stuffs.....
I hope I can get trough it.....
I think I'm gonna be ok....