Peggy you bitch

Behind every guy who has given up on relationships is a girl who broke his heart.
Behind every girl there is a guy who has under appreciated her or never treats her right, but she still falls head over heels for him. 
Me?
My feelings have died one by one along the way when I was growing up.
One lie after another, few stupid mistakes and one broken heart.
Till you came along, I felt that it was Easter Day again. 
Slowly I felt some of my emotions coming back. 
I started feeling happy at first, but slowly disappointment and anger started creeping back into me.
As times pass, dissapointment took over my emotion during the time when we were together.
It was a blessing and a horrible curse to be able to feel again. 
How I wish that I was dead inside again.
I was less emotional, I was less angry, I was way more cool headed.
I didn't know this was actually slowly killing me over again.
How I wish I could only just feel joy and not the others.
It was impossible, till he came along and I was slowly pushing you out of the picture.
Because with him, my impossible dream became possible.
I was joyful and lighthearted most of the time.
I was so addicted to this feeling, I got hooked on and I was promised constant supply.
But I was scared of the duration of my supply would run out. 
I took quite a long time to decide if it was worth it or not.
It was worth it. Definitely worth it. 
Why should you put yourself through all this disappointment,
when there is someone who will not disappoint you?
Why should you allow him to put you second,
When someone is willing to put you before themselves?

Okay so there is actually nothing to do with Peggy.
And just to make things clear, Peggy didn't offend me.
And Peggy is a name I just made up.