Everything Is Wrong 2

The things that had been bothering me started not long ago.

or maybe it was long enough to let me be fossil.

But ofcourse,

i didn't know when it happen,

because i was same as dead.

nobody even realize i wasn't there.

i was equal to dead.

i didn't bother to ask a lot about it when i saw what really happened.

when i did ask,

i tried to makes things back the same way,

but eventually i couldn't ,

i fail.

i asked, 

but it looks like lightning was going to strike on me.

things that i have seen are more hurtful than this.

i was quite sad about our friendship that turn sour.

i did have enough.

each other think about the same thing the other way.

i was in the class when i thought about all this.

it was the best time for me to sort all this thing out.

and for once i was grateful that no one came to bother me.

and at least i have PEACE N QUITE.

i hope i'm not the main cause that our friendship turn sour.

i hope i'm not the one who went to poke fire,

and made the thing more complicated.

it's not that complicated for one reason.

but i think that she have her own reason.

the reason that can't be told

i don't know whether the reason she told me is true.

but it's really getting harder for me to talk to them.

i don't know when my mouth would blurt out something that i shouldn't said.

but this is honestly enough for me.

i don't need another set of dumb problem!!

PLZ UNDERSTAND THIS PROBLEM IS BETWEEN US!

NONE OF THE OUTSIDERS BUSINESS!!!

I'LL HAVE TO WORRY BOUT THAT PROBLEM AGAIN.

AND MAYBE FOR A LONG TIME!!

I DON'T THERE TO SAY I HAVE MUCH EXPERIENCE.

BUT HONESTLY I HAVE FACE THIS KIND OF DUMB FRIENDS PROBLEM AT PRIMARY SCHOOL AND KINDERGARTEN,

I HAVE GOTTEN USE OF THIS KIND OF SICK GAMES.

I DON'T REALLY TRUST ANYONE THIS TIME.

WHEN I CAME INTO HIGH SCHOOL.

I THOUGHT THAT IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT.

THE PEOPLE HERE WON'T BE THAT CHILDISH.

IT STARTED OUT GREAT.

I MADE NEW FRIENDS AND  GOTTEN QUITE WELL ALONG.

I THOUGHT THAT I HAVE FOR ONCE TRUSTED PEOPLE.

I REALLY LONGED TO HAVE TRUE FRIENDS,

TO HAVE FRIENDS THAT NO SECRET AMONG US,

OBVIOUSLY I WAS DUMB TO TRUST THAT.

I WAS PATHETIC,

I THOUGHT BACK WHILE I WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL.

I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT ALL I HAVE GONE TROUGH I STILL BELIEVE IN THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED TRUE FRIENDS. 

BUT WHEN THE SECOND YEAR STARTED,

I WAS WRONG.

THE TIDAL WAVE THAT I HAD EXPECTED ISN'T HERE YET.

THIS WAS ONLY THE START OF IT.

I DON'T EXPECT THAT MY FRIENDS WOULD UNDERSTAND MY PAIN,

WHEN I AM IN KINDERGARTEN AND PRIMARY SCHOOL.

IT WAS THE SAME.

WHEN THE 1ST SCHOOL YEAR CAME,

IT ALL STARTED GOOD,

BUT SLOWLY IT ROTTEN TO BITS.

WHEN I WAS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL IT GOT WORSE.

I WAS SENT TO THE PRINCIPALS OFFICE ALMOST EVERY WEEK.

FOR COUNSELING.

THE PRINCIPAL THOUGHT THAT I HAD MENTAL PROBLEM.

AND WAS THE ONE MAKING THE SCHOOL GO HAY WIRE.

I WAS BORN IN A PLACE WHERE I CAN'T TRUST PEOPLE.

I DIDN'T TALK MUCH OF THIS IN SCHOOL,BECAUSE

I DON'T WANT THINGS TO GET THIS AWFUL.

I DON'T WANT BAD MEMORIES FLOODING BACK AGAIN.

I DON'T WANT THOSE NIGHTMARES TO HAUNT ME AGAIN.....