problem?

what's your problem now?
do you have a f*cking problem?
i can honestly tell you that I hate you.
if you have a fucking problem with me, tell it to me.
or are you a coward?
you think that I like looking at you?
you know,
if it weren't for her,
i wouldn't even wanna be here at the first place.
i know you don't like me either,
so it's the best for us

well...
i've calm down and realize that what i wrote above is too strong and inappropriate.
so...
i'm gonna rephrase...
i'm not saying that i hate you...
it's like,
if you were on fire,
and i have a glass of water.
i'd rather drink it.
so..
yeah..
you'll get my point..

like a pro

i'm sitting at Starbucks drinking a cup of coffee and writing this post. 
i feel like a really pro blogger.
most of the movies show that people writing blog in a coffee house are pro.....
so i'm like in one of the movies now.
i've been sitting here for more than 3 hours.
looking at people come and go....
it's not like i don't have anything better to do,
but it's kinda interesting.

i've been looking at this women.
she came in like 30 minutes ago.
she has this really upset look
and her face is getting more impatient by the minute.
she was holding on to her phone and checking it every minute.
she looks like she's waiting for someone.....
she didn't buy any drinks or food
just sitting there like a fool...
i'm starting to rhyme again....
anyway she's still there.

 there's another couple from Korea, i think...
sitting beside me....
they keep looking over to my place...
they might think that this is a real blogger...
hahaha...
i'm losing my mind...
they don't talk a lot.
but they do they speak kinda loud...
i'm wearing my earpieace listening to a very noisy song
and i still can hear them talking...
he's eating a cake and licking hi fork every bite....
this is so gross......

there's another girl siting in front of me....
she's alone....
everyone is....
but you can see that some are quite lonely....
there's this guy,
he's sitting just beside the girl...
he has this sad sad look on his face...
i don't know what he saw...
but his face looks like he's about to cry....

i also see lots of people coming in a group
but ended up playing their own device....
some listening to songs...
some surfing internet...
most of them on facebook....
it's kinda sad.....
i see people's post on fb with who, at where, feeling happy...
but these people are actually sitting by your side scrolling the phones.
and you just tag those people in fb....
you are sitting face to face.....
but you are not talking...
what's the point of posting it on fb if you are not talking to each other??
or you just wanna show people that i'm not anti social...
i have friends..... and we hang out together.....
but in actual fact you just sit there together....
well if that's the case...
i'd rather come out by myself
sit in the cafe myself rather than with a bunch of friends on their phone...

we gotta spend more time talking....
like face to face not through chat and stuff...

we gotta appreciate our friends....
please....
phones and gadgets are gonna take over our lives soon.....

maybe i don't know

i don't know where am i,

but i surely don't miss your lies

sometimes i still miss your big brown eyes

cause when they look me in my eye,

my tongue gets tied,

brain goes white

and my stomach gets butterflies.

you could make my world reach the sky

but all you did was make me cry.

well Mr. Smart Guy,

i hope you are nearby 

cause i'm about to say good bye.

i can honestly say,

you blew me away

when you said you were gay.

you said you'd be amaze

that i'd still stay by your side.

i will never leave you

even if you're screwed.

but after you got a tattoo

of a guy name Hugh

i threw my shoe at you.

i guess this is it.

this is our split

i didn't throw a fit,

i didn't move a bit

i'm just gonna eat a banana split

and play in the kid's ball pit

till i get sick

and admit

you were just another misfit.

:) :( :) :( :)

do you know that my mood actually depends on you?

i get so frustrated when you treat me coldly,

i get so sad when you just reply a 'k'.

i get so angry when you start flirting around.

but you know,

just by using a smiley face,

you can instantly put back the smile on my face.

just by talking to me,

you make my brains go crazy.

just by calling me,

even just for a short talk,

you'll put butterflies in my stomach.

just by looking at me or smiling at me,

you make my heart stop.

I love you,

but I love me more.

that is why i choose to not reply you.

i am afraid that one day,

you might not reply me,

you might not say goodbye to me,

you might not send me home,

you might not save a seat for me,

you might not put smiley faces again~

i'd rather let you think i'm the bad one.

i'd rather just let our conversations end with a smiley face.

and i'd rather let our last meeting end by you waving bye from your car.

I CANT BELIEVE IT..........

i can't believe it,

it is the last day to do my preparation for spm......

tomorrow's the first paper.

and i'm still playing tetris........

i was playing candy crush, but my 5 lives are gone....

so i went to play tetris and my energy level is also low........

so now while waiting for everything to come back

i'm writing this......

i feel bad for not studying....

but i also feel bad for studyng......

the studying actually comes from

study + dying = studying

this is kinda like maths...

so for maths revision i'm done.

talking about maths.

maths actually is the acronym for

Mental

Abuse

To

Human

so i'm done for english revision....

i'm done...

my lives and energy levels are back to normal....

so i'm going off again~~><

!!!!!!!!

I'm sorry again..

But if you hate me, then....
Well I don't give a fuck...

But there's one thing I'm really sorry about.......
I've lost the one who loves me,
And the one I love....
Well, I've cherish everything and 
I'm not gonna regret bout it....

Now I might be sorry for what I did.
After that I'm gonna be sorry for what I didn't do.....

We're never meant to be

I just know that somehow we are gonna end up like this...
It is a cycle...
People say it will be better once you get to know who they are...
But I don't think so...
The better you gt to know them,
The uglier side of them you will see....
I'd rather keep my impression on you as the sweet, mentally unstable girl...
And I'd rather still think you of the smart and selfish girl...
And you, the really active one....
But somehow, those beautiful first impression were gone.....

Anyway, I feel kinda lost lately...
I'm not meant to be anywhere...
The most comfortable place I feel is when I'm drawing.....
You say you hate to be cheated...
Who does? Nobody wants to be cheated... So think of what you did to others....
As I've said, I'd do nothing for a friend....
But I hope you appreciate it.
You say you hate people taking advantage of you,
But think about yourself, you are starting to take advantage of people too.

I've got the feeling,
People who looks weak, need more protection....
Fine, I'll be on my own... I'll protect my ass...and yours too....
Whatever, I M TIRED OF ALL THESE SHIT.

Something I call friendship

Do you ever get that feeling,
That you are always the one who care for other people
And they don't appreciate it.
I'm tired of it!
I'm tired to be to the one who's always thinking bout other people.
I'm tired to be the one who has to care about others feeling.
I'm tired to be the one who has to clean up your shit.
Who's gonna think about me?
Who's gonna care bout my feeling?

Who's gonna help me?

I wonder

Will the sun get tired bout 

he's the one always providing us warmth

And yet you ungrateful people say its fucking hot.

I wonder

Will the sun shut down totally one day

And leave us ungrateful beast to chill to death?

Tell me!

Who the fuck is gonna care bout my fucking feelings!

When you have a problem,
I gotta deal with it.
You said you don't like me doing this,
I don't do it. I stop doing it.

But now,

You still say its not enough?

What the fuck do you want me do now?

I've had enough of caring your feelings.
I am your freaking friend for gods sake.

Now what?
After I deal with your fucking problem and your feeling,
You ran off feeling fine as fuck
And leave me feeling like a piece of shit?

What kind of a fucking friend are you?

Stupid fuctards!

I'm sick of it!
From now on,
 I JOY LIM WILL NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANY FCUKING THING WHICH DO NOT INVOVLES ME.
I WON'T FUCKING CARE BOUT YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS

B

Fucked up

I don't know what I'm feeling right now...
It's a mix of anger, a hint of happiness,  a sprinkle of excitement..
And a dash of sadness...
I'm not complicated... But I don't know what am I.....
I don't wanna be a regular kid.....
But I don't want complicated things...
People's mind are complicated, the things they think, and words they say and understand.
They are people who twist your words on purpose and ignore you for what they misunderstood....
The they'll come around and say : I thought you were my friend....
Well if you treat me as a friend, you would have come to me bout the problem you had with me.
And not go round telling other people bout it....
If they can solve our problem,
They can create one...
If you don't have the courage to talk to me bout our problems,
Don't say that we're friends.. Some kind of a friend you are....

Like I said,
I would do anything for my friend , as long as it does not cost my life.
I would totally be nice to you in a bad way....
But If u don't understand it, too bad.....
Guess we're not meant to be...

I have always imagined a world,
 That everyone was pure and not so complicated....
I blame the Internet sometimes......
Wen I was young, I was taught to tell the truth and not lie....
But now, I am taught that I should not put my real info on the net.....
I can't imagine educating a kid in another few years time....
What would it be?
When I was young, people actually interact...
Now, even though I wish you happy birthday on Facebook, but I still don't know you.

Because of the net (partly),
People are getting more coward...
They are afraid to face the real world and the truth....
I hate facing the truth...but It's the truth, you gotta live with it....
I can't say that I'm getting better at acting....
Because I stink at it... If I don't like you, I don't give a fuck bout you....
I just learn to stay as far as possible....
Where there are interactions, there are miscommunication.

When Things get old, people get bored, wishes get fulfilled, targets are achieved,
It's that time when you think that life's nothing but a piece of dried pizza....
It's not tasty anymore, but it'll be a waste to throw it out....
It's time to add some new toppings to it....
New target, new surrounding, new excitement and stuffs.....
I hope I can get trough it.....
I think I'm gonna be ok....

hold on!

I'm not too shy to show I love you.
I got no regret.
So if you are ready just come and get me.
but take note I won't wait for you forever.

no matter how much you say you love some one.
but you know you won't wait for them for your whole life.
you'll soon forget about her when you meet someone who loves you.

i love it when I know that I'm your whole world.
but when you start moving on, I hate it.
I just want to ask you a question,
why did you broke up with me? then you want me back?
well if you don't answer me it's ok.

but just to let you know, 
when you left me there to bleed
then you stick a knife back in to stop bleeding.
i met a better person.
but i know that nothing will last.

i'm just gonna cherish everything.
before some asshole comes around and ruin everything.
so fuck you, who said that you'll do anything for me.

tired of being left out

i was supposed to be in a camp for 4 days, but i cant stand it anymore.
my head hurts like a thousand of marching band inside my head.
my arms ache like i'm carrying thousands of stone.
and the first night i think i encounter paranormal activity.
i was really freaked out.
so the next day i left, because i cant take it anymore.
just for the record i hate that teacher.

i saw my old friends there.
but it's just sad that we have became strangers.
we used to hang out together.
go swimming and have a drink.
but now it's just sad that all we have was gone.
looks like we've all grown up and have our own life...
we walked passed each other like strangers on the street.
not even a smile or a glance was exchange.
she was chatting with her friends,
and i was busy updating my facebook status.
that very awkward yet strange feeling.
any way just really sad about it.

i was really looking forward to this camp.
i also met my ex...
and he is still cute, girls still buzz around him like bees and honey...
well to think that i was once a bee around him too.
but now, i've grown wiser.
i sent him a message and i wish he'd reply.
but you know, the higher you get your hopes up, the bigger the disappointment will be.
i'm trying to act like nothing happened though.
guess i'm not very wise to do that....

that's all about the camp.
tomorrow i'm going to a coffee house to meet an old friend.
she's flying in from Paris and we're meeting up.
i don't know how long this friendship will last.
even friends who have known each other for the whole life end up being strangers.
that is sad.....

well,
i'll cherish the time we have together while it still last.

I can't think of the tittle

Today when I was sitting on the swing set, I looked up to the sky and thought of the good old days where we use to have fun and just play around....
We never really had anything to bother, we played like it was nobody's Bussiness. 
But now, can I still do that? 
I really missed that time when we were still young and dumb, and we think that everyone else was dumb. But the dumb one was actually us...
I really missed that time when we were just fooling around, just trying to be a kid..
I saw kids running around and looked at myself I wish I could go back where all I have to do was play and not take things seriously. 
I wished that everything would just be as easy as 1+1=2 and not some x+y=3.
Where did those time went?
When did everything became so complicated? 
Did I just missed a part where everyone just turned into a bitch and started falling in love?
Last time I thought that if youn sat next to a boy, it means that you are his girl friend..
But now, even if you went to a movie with one you still are not his...is the world changing or the people around me changing?
Maybe it's time for me to change too..
there will always be someone around to make your life difficult.
Adults say:' this is liFe, u'll meet moRe later.'
I don't wanna meet fuckiN bitches!
I just wanna be a kid and fool aroUnd.
I looked up to the clouds and they were floating away, just like my cheerful times.
I used to be a very happy kid.
But now I can't be happy when I want to and I have to fake a smile infront of those bitches when all you want to do is cry and punch them hard in the face.
You have to fake that you like them when you really want them to burn and die.
You have to really think before you speak,or someone else might be listening.
You have to do this and that, and everyone's expectation is so damn high.
You start to have loads of fucking pressure on you.
Sometimes you can't be too kind, you'll be used.
But you can't be to cruel, they'll say you're heartless.
I really hate this world!
I really don't know how to handle this fucked up world, all I want is my childhood and those happiness.
All I'm feeling now is just hatred and sadness.
There are happiness but just not enough to cover those hatred and sadness.
All I can do is just to pushed them deep down.
I know everyone has their problems, but I really don't know how long I can hold.
If i can ill try to hold on.
I wish that one day when I wake up, I'll still be sleeping in a baby cot.
And This was actually one long nightmare . I am actually still a new born baby that doesn't know anything about this ugly world.
Just now when I got hit in the head reall hard, I wanted to sliced his fingers one by one and throw them into a bottle of sulphur lock him up in a box but leave his head up to see the mice slowly chewing his intestine and body and let his blood drip out.
But all I could do is just to sweep everything to the floor.
I can't do anything but to just forgive and forget.
All I can do is just to bottle up loads and loads of hatred and sadness and angryness.
People say if you keep it in for too long you'll get problems, but if I let it all out Ill get problems now.

复杂化

世界很复杂，
其实复杂的是社会，
社会并不复杂，
复杂的事人，
人其实也不复杂，
是思想复杂。
其实思想并不是复杂，
只是太多种不同的想法。
而我们没有读心术。
到处都有的买这种书，
也是为什么会有心理医生。
有时心理医生也未必了解你。
有时连自己都未必了解自己。

能找到一堆与你同样智障的朋友是很难的。
好朋友是不会批评你的外表的
好朋友是会和你一起批评别人，
在你背后支持你，
而不是在你背后插一把刀的人。

有时你会觉得他们不能体谅你。
你会觉得他们做的东西很笨。
有时当他们不告诉你某些事时，
你会想他们到底是否把你当好朋友
还是只是你自己认为罢了。
有时你甚至会怀疑你有没有交错朋友。

有些事情并不是那么容易说出来的。
有可能怕伤害到你，有可能是不想麻烦你，也有可能不想让你觉得我烦。
就算真的鼓起勇气说出来了，
你能不能接受得到？
你会不会帮我？

可是你想看，
说是朋友，
朋友也有自己的底线，自己的尊严。
朋友也有自己的事情，自己的问题。
有时不说出来也是好事。
可是说出来也有可能是好事。

自己烦就好。
何必烦埋别人？
你以为自己就很忙，很烦。
别人就很得空听你的问题？

看到这里你们别误会
我的朋友有问题我还是一定会帮的！

HEY BITCH! GUESS WHAT?!

I once hated bitches.
i think that they are cruel and slutty and bitchy
some even a whore!!
there are many kinds of bitch around...
normal usual kind,
slutty whore,
stupid bitch,
brainless bitch,
and the worst kind of bitch in the worst kind of bitch history!!
the smart bitch....

i swore that i wont be a bitch myself!
cause i hated them.
but then i realized that
only you be a bitch or else you'll be the one suffering.
the world changes us,
or people around us changes us,
they make us think more about our-self...
after a while,
i started turning into a heartless bitch.....
you will be one someday...
it's more fun being the bad guy,
even if you get caught in the end.....
if you dont get caught, that means you are good in this game....

you could say i'm irresponsible...
but i hate that word even though its the truth.....
by being a heartless bitch, you wont get broken hearted...
i guess i'm selfish, 
but not everything has a win win situation...
i'd rather i win!
who doesnt want to win??? 

i could only say i'm sorry.
for breaking your heart...
but, time mends everything...
just think about it as you've learnt a valuable lesson from me...
and the price is a broken heart.....
it's a very cheap price for such an expensive course......

in conclusion....
heartless bitch = no heart break
heart broken = a lesson learnt

消失的灵魂

不是你们的错，

我也不打算怪你们，

你们也不需要怪自己。。

完完全全是我自己的问题。

是我自己不要了解你们

是我自己不要跟你们太近

我看过他们的结局，

我不想要有同样的。

我在猜现在这，

结局应该也是一样的。

你伤过一个，

他会吸取教训了，

他不会再这么笨了。

我不是不关心，

只是觉得不是我应该关心的范围内。。

你喜欢怎样就怎样吧。。

以前我要你躲开的人

你可以不需要躲了~~

我把自由还给你。。。

我真的很快就要消失了。。

我想看看没有我的世界。。

应该不是很大的问题。。。

反而更和平。。

我只是想看我到底有多重要。。

反正你已经有你的人选。。

其实，有时候对的人就在眼前，

可是我看不到。

有时我知道那是对的人，

可是我偏要走远路，偏要去撞墙，偏要去试看痛苦的方法。

当你是那个对的人，

你会觉得我很笨。

可是当你是我，

你根本不会了解我为什么要这样做。

我并不难了解。。

因为我自己也不了解。。。

how r you doin?

hey~

is it just me?

because when my crush says hi to me, 

i'll be feeling like in heaven or having a really good chocolate bar!!

i'll be happy for the rest of the day!

i'll be nice to people too!!

it is really a miracle!

but unfortunately,

most of us can't get what we want.

well,

but sometimes,

we can't go blind chasing something that doesn't love us.

and we neglect the things or person who loves us.

but you know,

girls always have to choose the harder way.

but I also know that some girls are actually kind enough to not break people's heart.

unless if you are a bitch or that guy is harassing you.

otherwise, no one's heart should be broken.

i'm in pain right now,

i know i really shouldn't break anyone's heart.

but i'm torn apart between you 2!

i like one and another one likes me.

i'm not saying i don't like you,

but remember how it ended last time..

i'm really happy i can see you now...

but you see what happens to us now?

i wish i could still talk to you like in the old days.

the times we were having so much fun,

the times we were messing around,

just fun all the time!

can somebody tell me what has happened to us?

please come back, i just wanna say i missed the old days....

Hello bitch,

I want to play a game. 

For years you have been taking things that doesn't belongs to you.

Now you will have a chance to redeem yourself, for the games you've played with others, by playing one of mine.

for the rest of your life you will be facing all the others shit, lies and liar and other thing else...

if you think that you can walk through your life always taking other people's half and leaving them heart broken, now you'll have the chance to feel the pain.

physical pain. the pain of being cut in half and having to cut yourself.......

you may have a chance of surviving, if you just follow the rules.

how much blood will you shed in order to survive..

Remember bitch, once you're in Hell, you'll deal with the devil and only the devil can help you out.


this is an edit from the movie saw~><

life is like a box of chocolate

well~~
everyone knows that a lot of things will happen in field trips~~
some will be ass holes and jerks,
some will be exited,
some will be bitches,
and some will be heart broken..
well it comes to no fail,

when there's bitches, there's broken heart.

real eyes see real lies..

i don't know what are they up to~
and i don't plan to know...
if they plan to mix with the bitches,
i'm fine with that..

dumb boy + smart bitches = dumb boy gets hurt

well, if they know that they are wrong..

dumb boy - smart bitches = happy dumb boy + happy smart girl

i'm not saying that i'm smart..
but if you are really smart, you should realize that you are making a fucking big mistake!!
well our class trip was really fun...
drama filled class trip~~
all those guessing and thinking, 
trying to break the big mystery of the missing money~~
hope you guys realize that we can't always get what we want..
but if the things we want belongs to us,
it'll come back...
or if that thing thinks it belongs to us it'll come back..
even if you don't want it~~

and to those bitches..
you may think you won this round~
but the next game is the real challenge~~><

who knows?

every once in a while,
you have to let yourself go...
everyone has their own temper...
everyone has their own feelings....

behind every cheerful smile, 

there's always something hidden,

secrets, pain, sadness and hatred.

no one can always put a smile everyday.
so if you need a friend just tell me, 
i'll ever be ready to hear your endless talking and scolding...
but i think that once in awhile,
i have feelings too..
just kidding...
i don't give a shit about what other people think...
except that if i really care about you...

people out there..
here's a piece of advice...
do what you want (not illegal things) and never regret about it.
let others critise you, complaint bout you, pick on you, back stab you, hurt your feelings
but be proud of yourself.
be proud of your heart.
after all these things that hurt you, 
yet you still have the courage to wake up every morning.

dear children in the world,
don't keep hatred, not even when a bitch steals your man.
if he's smart enough, he'll come back. 
if not, let him go. that bitch will be stuck with a dumb guy.
but most of all...
DON'T LET ANYONE HURT YOU.
if you think you are good enough..

be yourself. 

don't try to be others, don't compare with others.

compare with yourself. 

ARE YOU IMPROVING??! if you are, then it's good enough.

NO ONE IS WORTH IT.
no one is worth your tears, time, and blood.
unless if you love them very much!
unless they are worth loving..
your parents and kids.

kids,

remember

 LIVE TO BE YOURSELF.

be proud of who u r.even when the world mocks you.

prove to the world I'LL BE FINE!

AND YOU'LL BE FINE

it is about time!

well it is about time to study~~
but i don't mind....
well,
just that i'm kinda high...
and i don't really know why....
met a guy in the car on the way home....
don't know where he comes from...
but my friend says he's rude, obnoxious and no manners at all....
i think he smokes too...
doesn't talk much..
but one thing for sure, 
he is not local.....
just manage to get his name and nothing else.
well he looks like a nice guy to me.
what's wrong with that??
maybe he's just here for the day..
and he'd be gone,
my friends seem really upset that he just shrugged off
when they were asking him things......

well...
bye for now....

SPECIAL POST!!

well after a friend helped me in BIG things.
i've promised to thank her by writing a post specially to her.
name: TANG JING YUAN ELF (that's the fb name)
things that she has helped me: asking someone if that seat next to him was taken...
well you might think it is just a small little thing, 
but i can tell you, it is NOT!!!
anyway, thank you jing yuan elf....
写到这里我猜想到你说要华文的~~
so，就这里接下去吧~~
我由衷地感谢你让我度过一个快乐的时光。。
谢谢。
我不懂还要写什么了。
等我再想到如何美化整篇文章，
我再post过一个美的~~

Fucking tears!!

The moment when you wanna cry
But realize that you hv no tears.
Bcoz your tears have turn into sweat.
You have been the one doing all the work...
And all you get I'm return is piece of shit and people who doesn't 
FUCKING APPRECIATE!

SUMMER

Like the SUMMER, you are HOT.

Like the SUMMER, you COME and GO.

Ok, enough with the summer thing.

These few days I'm really going crazy,

There's just too many things to do.

Soooo much that I've decided not to do anything.

Other than that,
I was suppose to go to a drama this Saturday,
Well turns out, i won't b going.
I was really looking forward to go.
Well not because I might have a chance to catch a glimpse of this guy!
Ok, there's this guy, well not new guy. 
I knew him. But I just didn't know if he remembers me or not?
It will be really awkward, if he didn't remember me.
Well, all i could do now is just stare at him and wait for the perfect time.

25.02.13
Is a very important day!
Just reminding myself.

One question,
When  the hell did he became so HOT?!

时间只是一些数字

我从来都没有喜欢过数学。
尤其是小时候学习如何看时钟。
可是现在，时间真的让我很痛苦。
我终于明白事件的重要啦。
每天日夜滴期待着那一天的到来。
每天在想何时会来？
期待着你看我一眼。
就那么一眼， 有那么难吗？
你需要我怎样你才肯看我一眼？

以前是我不好，可是请你别计较。
小的时候，我有机会以你相处，
可是我却没珍惜。
若我有机会回到从前，我会告诉我自己：
＂好好珍惜你。＂

我这次真的很困难地再找机会
遇到你。
你知道要遇到你是一件多么难的事吗？
好像牛郎和织女等着喜鹊排成桥。。
等着每一年的那一天！

Did I ever liked you?

Why did i ever like you?
What did I see?
Whatever I've seen must be and illusion,
Some kind of tricks on me.
I never liked u before.
Maybe there was, but it was like few thousand years ago.
That time I was young and stupid.
That time, I would wish nothing but for you to be with me.
Now, I would wish nothing for you to leave me.
I know now that I can't stand being tide to someone,
I can't stand to lose my freedom.
You may say that I'm stupid or anything else, or even selfish.
But the point is,
I was YOUNG and STUPID that time.
But now, i'm not selfish, I just put myself first in everything.
It's not that I hate you.
Just need my space.
I now know that you are not the one for me,
And I really miss the time I was free.
Oh no, I'm sounding like some people in those old movies.
Look!
I don't care who you were playing with or talking with or sleeping with.
I just made that sound like I care, but In fact I think that she's not even up to my standard.
I think that you should lower your standards for people like her.
Cause, don't you get it?
You failed once, and this time you nearly succeed. But in the end you failed too.
So, this proves that you are still not ready for my kind of standard.
You think you understand me.
But do you really?  Please don't change yourself for me. 
And don't ask me to change for you. 
The only changes I'll make is your facial parts, if you ask me to change myself for you.
that will NEVER happen. Unless I've gone crazy or truly in love with you.
I.m not those kind of slut, I don't change for anyone and I don't want anyone to change coz of me.
I keep my style you keep yours. 
I will like you for who you are, not what you are when you're around me.
Please, I beg you, don't be a hypocrite.
You might think that you liked me now, but you'll realize I was the wrong one after all.

!!!!!!!

wow it has been a long time!!

feels like a thousand years~

my life is gonna change soon~

i'll tell you something~

last few days i was in the class~~

and it was a really gloomy day~

so you can tell it was really sleepy.....

and it was a really boring class....

so.. i was staring at my book....

and i was pretending to listen......

then the book started to go blur...

and the book started glowing white lights.....

i was shocked, but i was so attracted to the light...

the light was callling me to enter.....

then everything around me has gone black,

there was a light infront of me.....

sucking me into it....

suddenly i saw that guy's face....

oh my goodness!!

this guy died long ago...

i dreamt about him and then he died in my dream.....

alright we talked for a long time...

i don't know what have we talked.....

but after a while he said that he has to go~~

but he was very nice~

he said that he would send me to my door step~

so when i open the door,

i came back to the class......

it was a short trip~~

but i hope that i could see him again~

my god!!

 was i dreaming??

or i was like transported to another dimension???

anyway~

that was my day~

Just kiddin

I can't believe that I made a kid cry ~??
Well, he firstly he wasn't crying,
Secondly, he was not a kid he was like 6 grader.
Maybe 12 or 13 years old~~
I really don't know what made him cried~
He was crying when I saw him,
But after I tried to calm him down he started crying louder!!
All I said was: if you are not gonna stop crying , I'm gonna ask the boogie man to eat you.
Is that bad???
Well I admit that I'm not that good at baby sitting.
I sat on a kid once, when I was babysitting for the first time.
I thought baby sitting literally meant sitting on a baby or kid~~
My bad~><
Any way , I'm not going to school tomorrow,
Gonna kick back and relax!

Let me go my way

I can't believe what you said to me~~
Because of you I'm having a bad bad day.
It's time to have it my way!
Don't take it personally,
But if you do, it's ok~
Just years before, I was just a kid~
Enjoying my life playing all the way~
But why am I here now ?
I don't have to see you face~
And I don't live to PLEASE you~
So from right now ,
Let me just say please let go of me!